[Donnie1974]

Hi guys, I am a 35 year old male who has been on Xanax for nine years and cymbalta for a little over three years, well I was laid off in April of this year, I did have COBRA however, I was late on a payment and my plan was terminated. Anyway I ran out of both my cymbalta and Xanax, about four days ago and can not afford the cost of these medicines on my own while being unemployed, the Xanax xr 3mg is $130.00 and the cymbalta is over $200.00 for a months supply. I called my doctors office and explained my situation with them telling them that I lost my health insurance and if they would please, switch me to regular Xanax and maybe a cheap SSRI like efexor, so instead of paying over $300.00 for medicine I would only have to get about $40.00 together to get my meds. The doctors office response was NO!! I asked why and they told me since I owed the office $50.00 that the doctor would not call any meds in for me, so I called back begging and explaing to them how crappy I am feeling, to no avail they still said no and told me they could see me in about three weeks for a visit which would cost me $150.00, so I explained once again that I could not wait that long nor afford the cost right now. The withdraw has been bad, I'm out of it, I am extremly tired, shaky, scared, dis attached from my self and others, all I want to do I lay on bed, beer helps, but I know that is not the answer. I was so on edge the other day I overdrew my bank account by $40.00 so I could get a few beers and watch my phillies in the world series. The beer was a quick fix but does not work. I live in south Philadelphia, with my so called girlfriend and her son, who both have been extremly unsympathtic to what I am going thru, I was told yesterday day that she could care less and doesn't care, bc if I was so sick then I would be to sick to go drink a beer and she refuses to give me any money to get meds or see a doctor, even though I have spent my entire savings on her and her son in the past four months in the amount close to $17,000.00. I'm sorry if I am going off in a big tangent but I have no one to talk to, my girfriend does not want to be bothered, she rather spend every dime on her spoiled son then help me out of this pain, did I mention she is six months pregnant with my child. Well my parents don't talk to me anymore because of all the depression I have been going thru the past ten years, they tell me they can't handle it, so what does someone in my situation do? How do I get thru the withdraw? Will it kill me? Why am I so tired? When does it stop? I'm scared it's going to kill me. I feel so alone in all of this, I can't go to a hospital, because I know she will take everything I just bought to furnish this house, then I'll be homeless. The military won't even help, after I gave them close to 12 years service. I am open to any sugestions, anything please.!!!!! All I do is sit in the bedroom alone 24/7 taking my bloodpressure and praying that this withdraw which is getting worse by the hour will go away.

[nursedeborah]

Donnie,
Welcome, just saw this was a repeat, but wanted to say that I did see you said
you have been on Xanax for 9 years.

Taking money out of your bank account that you don't have to buy beer was also
not a real bright thing to do. Have you been drinking at other times as well?

There just seems to be so many problems in your life that are ongoing, and you
say that your girlfriend doesn't even care about you. Sounds like there is just so
much going on.

I would really try to get into a rehab to detox off the drugs, there are free ones.

Debbie