[Crazy Misty]

I know there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel but I am finding it harder and harder to be positive about that light. I feel like it is a mirage that I will never truly reach.

How I am functioning at my job is beyond me but I have 2 kiddos that know mommy is NOT feeling well at all. I have a husband who (bless his heart) doesn't understand but is being sympathetic.

I feel like a chronic complainer which is totally opposite of ME.

I feel like a hypochondriac AND an old woman because of the pain in my body. I am 31 but I feel like I am 90 about to die.

My lips and finger tips constantly have a "electric sensation".

The best analogy for me is that I feel like I am looking through the world through very thick and very foggy glasses.

Is there hope? will this ever end??

[pamela]

Crazy Misty, on 07 February 2011 - 03:39 PM, said:

I know there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel but I am finding it harder and harder to be positive about that light. I feel like it is a mirage that I will never truly reach.

How I am functioning at my job is beyond me but I have 2 kiddos that know mommy is NOT feeling well at all. I have a husband who (bless his heart) doesn't understand but is being sympathetic.

I feel like a chronic complainer which is totally opposite of ME.

I feel like a hypochondriac AND an old woman because of the pain in my body. I am 31 but I feel like I am 90 about to die.

My lips and finger tips constantly have a "electric sensation".

The best analogy for me is that I feel like I am looking through the world through very thick and very foggy glasses.

Is there hope? will this ever end??

There is HOPE! It will end.

I was on for 5 years at dosages up to 90mg at times. I got off....it took a while but it can be done.

What dosage were you taking when you quit?

Pam

[kmart69]

This is the first time that I joined in to a blog so I am not even sure if I am doing this right. So forgive me if I am not.

My doctor did the whole "weaning off" process with me over the past month alternating 60 and 30 and then just 30 and then 30 every other day and now it has been 3 days off.
I am sooo flipping dizzy and light headed. I worry if I should even be driving

Today when I got home from work I received something in the mail that made me so angry I totally lost it!!! It is a good thing that I am 45 mins from Chandler or I would have drove over to the apartment complex that I just moved out of and went off on someone in the office. Even as I write this I am trying to calm my self down.
I hate this feeling.

[CymHaltya]

Crazy Misty, on 07 February 2011 - 03:39 PM, said:

I know there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel but I am finding it harder and harder to be positive about that light. I feel like it is a mirage that I will never truly reach.

How I am functioning at my job is beyond me but I have 2 kiddos that know mommy is NOT feeling well at all. I have a husband who (bless his heart) doesn't understand but is being sympathetic.

I feel like a chronic complainer which is totally opposite of ME.

I feel like a hypochondriac AND an old woman because of the pain in my body. I am 31 but I feel like I am 90 about to die.

My lips and finger tips constantly have a "electric sensation".

The best analogy for me is that I feel like I am looking through the world through very thick and very foggy glasses.

Is there hope? will this ever end??

Hi Crazy Misty - after two years I stopped a 60mg dose at the end of September 2010 and yes, it's a bitch. I can tell you that some of the symptoms do diminish. At this juncture, I'm left with tinnitus, occasional bowling ball head (brain zaps) and a rather resilient depression. The current state represents a profound improvement when compared to how I felt during the earlier stages...as you are experiencing now. I know that many people have found a weaning process to be helpful and an empathic physician could be helpful too.

There were days when I simply surrendered to the hope of tomorrow. Journalling was helpful for me and I kept a blog cymbaltawillhaltya.wordpress.com - it is difficult for anyone who hasn't experienced this to appreciate how truly dark life can feel - the journalling allows for a conversation of sorts with ourselves and, it might provide loved ones a slightly more objective glimpse of the experience.

It might be helpful to get through one day at a time knowing that the denseness of the fog does begin to clear...hang in.