[runslikeagrl11]

So I have posted a few times here- I have been taking Cymbalta for 3 1/2 years, 60 mg for night terrors and PTSD. 5 weeks ago I decided to wean off slowly and of course the withdrawls are horrible but now my night terrors are back. A part of me feels defeated. Right now I am just utterly depressed. Cant I function without the drugs?? While I was Cymbalta I had night terrors but maybe once week, to once a month. Without medication I can have them every night at the worst.

The reason I am weaning is because I would like to have a baby but right now I just dont want to live. I am so down about this. Its one of the worse feelings in the world to be so tired but afraid to go to sleep because you know you will wake up screaming and its the weridest feeling in the world- I cant snap out of my night terrors fast enough. I freak out- bad. I wake up screaming, still seeing the image that causing me to panic until my husband turns on the light. He sleeps like a bear hibernating so you can only imagine how much fun it is to try to the light turned on. and I am literally paralyzed by fear I can only run out of the room or completely freeze up and just scream. There are some days I want to drive my car into a guard rail.

Does anyone know anyone else that has night terrors? I have heard of hypnothis so maybe I will look into that. Ive done my fair share of therapy for many many years too. I work out alot- running is my therapy but it doesnt take away the night terrors.

I just wanna wave the white flag. My body is done but mind wont stop.

[runslikeagrl11]

these night terrors are awful. I am so exhausted from them and whats odd is that they only disrupt my night for maybe a total of ten mintues but its like I was up all night long. Well there is some relief- brain zaps are slowly going away, my extreme mood swings are not as drastic and I dont have any suicidal thoughts. However, the night terrors which is what I was originally being treated for are indeed back.

Does anyone out there know what to do with this?? Yoga has helped, working out has sorta helped, but I think its all in my head. ugh

Im at a lost at what to do- no drugs though. I am done with that. Just looking for some advice....