Hi Cookie. I finally saw ur post about DID/MPD from months ago & have replied to it yesterday. Sorry but I did not get an alert notification from the forum despite settings being on. I was not ignoring you - just only come here occasionally to update/report so others know there is life after C and u have to find a new kind of normal after being so poisoned & work with what is left of you.
I have neuropathy and Cymbalta made it much worse - intolerable, I would just lie in bed beyond tears with the pain, that's another reason I needed to kick this stuff & wean off. Been C free for about 6 months now and neuropathy so much better, but is more sensitive in feet & legs which buzz constantly now & flare up with sugars badly. I think C has fried my nerve endings & destroyed my memory/dumbed me down which is very upsetting & downright dangerous. Can't even remember how old I am or my pets names sometimes. Still getting the odd brain zap when overtired but they are milder & not crashing me into the doorways etc. I'm sure this stuff triggers epilepsy, TLE. I now grind my teeth all the time & have nocturnal seizures and bite my tongue.
It may be useful to some with diabetic neuropathy as a pain killer, but for me, it exacerbated it greatly & is not worth the risk taking it for that - it is a head med firstly. The worst part was the incontinance, which is improving now, but damaged forever. It causes neuropathy, yet is used as a "treament" for it! This is not a good med for those with T2 Diabetes or IR.
Eli Lily are marketing it for just about everything these days - even arthritis. It's not - it's a brain med people! A so-called antidepressant which doesn't work for most and you become dependent on it as the W/D are so severe, worse than heroin. If u can tolerate being on it and it helps, remember you will have to wean someday...and it's the W/D that causes all the troubles. Ppl on Effexor are in the same boat. These SNRI's are causing serious harm to generations of us.
I weaned unsupported over 7 months, removing 10 grains per day, week by week and it's the best thing I ever did. If I need to have more grains - I would go back up by a few to try & maintain function. I injured my spine by fracture and was confined to my bed, alone, so it was the best time to wean as little else I could do. The Doctor didn't give a toss and was angry I wanted off this evil med. I went with my gut as I knew it was killing me and I would suicide eventually.
No, I did not knowingly have DID before SNRI's. It's caused so many problems I can't even speak of them. The episodes of DID were quite severe - I went cold turkey off Lexapro a few months before starting Cymbalta. Oh, boy, that really kicked it off and then Cymbalta brought out all this weirdness & other "personalities". I still find things I don't recall buying, mainly clothing & lots of other stuff I won't get into on this board. I am now aware of these alters and it makes United States of Tar look like a kids show. All my money was spent (online mainly at eBay & bookstores) and I became homeless, ending up in a squat with a broken back and weaning off C. Still, I survived and all that has stopped now I am C free.
It has altered my temper. I was always placid & quiet, rather a doormat. Now I am explosive & my emotions are very dulled even off it for 6 months. I can be suddenly aggressive when things build up and it only takes something small to trigger me - like a pressure cooker that cannot vent & then explodes. It scares the shit out of me. I am also very lazy now. Something I never was. No pride in keeping house or even unpacking after several moves. Live in chaos and am confined to bed a lot still due to injury. No help around, so it's tough. I am disabled by severe osteoporosis/arthritis & in much pain so normal things are a great effort anyway - even turning over in bed etc or standing up, but now I am sooo tired all the time I don't get much achieved in a day other than basics. I put it down to brain damage from Cymbalta as I was never like this before it - a very hard worker. I find it hard to care or feel much now. I don't look sick other than using a wheelchair or walking sticks when needed, so no consideration is made by others and I find it hard to ask for help.
I am hopeful though - hopeful that my poor brain will continue to recover slowly from a massive toxic assualt this drug has done to me. I refuse to see any more Doctors. They have no clue about withdrawals. Disgusted with their limited education & horrifed they continue to get ppl on this muck. Sorry, I do go on. Good to have a rant now & again.
I wish you & everyone here well with your weanings. It's a slow slow road and I wish this drug was banned. On the brighter side, it feels good to be off it, depression 90% better.
Blessings, Pixi.
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