[helpme2011]

I've been on this poison for 16 months and been trying to get off it for 8 months.
I'm on day 9 of cold turkey.
I have a 16 month old daughter and the doctors put me on this stuff after she was born.
I can honestly say right now that this stuff stopped me from bonding with my daughter. I loved her, of course.. but I never "felt" what i should have felt.
This stuff ruined my entire being. I was constantly tired, energyless and i never felt anything. nothing made me happy!
It made me into a rubbish parent. of course my daughter was well looked after and cared for but i never had the energy to play or to do anything.
So 9 days, cold turkey.. and i'm beginning to feel a little better. don't get me wrong, i still feel the brain zaps, dizziness and all the stuff that goes with withdrawal.. but i'm finally starting to FEEL things.. and it feels amazing.
I had forgotten how fantastic music sounded! please tell me I wasn't the only one?!
Weaning didn't work for me. I tried different ways for 8 months and I finally felt it was pointless as I was just prolonging the agony.
whether you're weaning or going cold turkey, please stick with it. you WILL feel better.
and especially to people who are going cold turkey.. DO NOT give up. I felt i was virtually dying at day 3, 4, 5 and 6...but i'm on day 9 now and i'm starting to feel slightly normal!!
This has been the WORST 9 days of my ENTIRE LIFE.. but I can finally see light at the end of the tunnel!
Good luck everybody, and please stick with this.
and one last thing -- when you get your feelings 'back'.. listen to music as it helps so much!
Music used to be my life until i started taking this stuff.

[Blackapple]

Im on day 9 too, and I also went cold turkey, and I have an 18 month old son, crazy! Im feeling so much better now as well. I still have slight brain zaps and waves of dizziness, but besides that I am starting to feel back to normal. I actually have energy to play with my son, and I am getting my creativity back which is great because I am an artist and photographer, so my creativity is vital to my career. I dont think I realized how much this medicine was effecting me in so many ways, and I didnt even realize it was the medication until I stopped. I have been taking a high dose of fish oil, herbal detox tea and a multi vitamin, and I honestly think that is why I am feeling as well as I do. I started on day 5. Day 4-7 were the worst, I thought I would die. I cant even believe that was only a couple of days ago, I really feel sooo much better. I tried tapering of the medication a couple times before and I honestly think that prolongs the withdrawal and sets you up to fail because its so awful. I am so glad to read there is someone on the same boat as me, and in the almost same situation I was in. Good luck!

[Pixi]

Please supply the forum with your regular updates - even every few weeks as it's take a long time for this toxin to leave the system and things change over time. Note any rebound effects etc. Not many walk away completely unscathed. Great ur both getting off this stuff & starting feel again - it does take a while & then you realise just how much of life has been stolen in the emotions dept.