[Jenofhearts]

Hey all, I am having a meltdown going through this, I can't believe it is the withdrawals anymore I just think I am plain going crazy. I want to be comatose until it is over, this is the hardest thing I have ever gone through excluding the death of my mom. I am so hyper aware of every little tingle, twitch, ache, etc...I am going nuts here, all I can do is cry and sit in a pity party of my very own. I have had a few good days and just started the 20mgs of prozac but new things creep up as old problems leave. Sleep sucks, I know I am exhausted from this fight and my body is denying me proper sleep. From taking anti anxiety meds I am now a walking zombie, tired and listless, completely useless as other people go on with their daily lives here I sit. I honestly don't believe at this point I am going to be different after this, I just can't see it right now.
Jenny :?

[Attorney_Victim]

Hang in there Jenny...it does get better, and you will feel a lot different (better) when you make it through this. Hopefully, the Prozac will help, it helped me a lot. I only stayed on it for 5 weeks, but I wish I had stayed on it longer. About 4 weeks after stopping the Prozac, I started experiencing mild withdrawal symptoms again. I think if I had stayed on the Prozac longer, I might have avoided that. You will get through this, but it will take time!!

[marbles]

Hi Jennie , just want you to know I have still feelings of hypersensity> just so many things bottled up in my brain>my brain just feels it is fried. I also (like at work tonight) felt i had to take deep breaths,and really just wanted to lay my head down on the desk and cry.But i managed to get through it and i feel like i am a complete failure as i watch and hear the laughter from others there who have no idea what mental pain i am going through just to get through work.

So i can only say we will get through this.Attorner_Survivor is living proof and others on this forum also.....shirl

[Jenofhearts]

Thank you guys for your kind replies, it means more than you know..
Shirl I don't know how you even manage to go to work during this, I have been very lucky that I don't have to work, if i did I would be out on the street and crazy!
One day at a time right..
Courage is not a roar...it is a tiny voice that says I will try again tomorrow
Jenny

[Jenofhearts]

Hey DC,
I am hangin on by an ass hair, I just feel like this must be a dream, how could this happen to me, I will try so hard with heart and soul to be better, just so scared that's all. Thanks for the kindness DC
Jenny

[iliao93]

Dear, dear Jeno, please hang on by whatever hairs you can grab It's the C...it's the C...it's the C...it's not you and you will get through. Your system just needs a chance to rebalance. I so know how endless and scary it is to feel like all this is never going to stop. I have been posting about the withdrawals from this you don't hear about much and what you are experiencing is classic PTSD.....how ironic that a med that was suppose to improve our lives appears to(from my observations) be causing PTSD :twisted: But from what I have been researching I really think that is what is going on! My well wishes are with you & if I can help in any way......
Be Well !?
Bobbie

"ALL THAT IS REQUIRED FOR EVIL TO PREVAIL IS FOR GOOD MEN TO DO NOTHING."

[Jenofhearts]

Bobbie,
I was just thinking earlier how this must be like PTSD, I will NEVER forget this time in my life..too much to handle sometimes, all I do is cry. I hate myself for being like this, I know deep deep down it is not my fault, but when you can't function like a "normal" person, ya know grocery shop etc... it really starts to wear you down. I am up late, I am so afraid of how I will feel in the morning, seems to be my worst time. Seems no matter how hard you set your mind to a feel better mode it just doesn't matter, it creeps up like a thief..
Best to you Bobbie and thank you {{{hugs}}}}
Jenny

[lazup]

Hi Jenny!

I know what you are feeling.. I'm rigth now weaning from cymbalta. Today is day 13, and everything feels desperate. Sometimes all I can do is crying, like you sayed. But maybe crying is not so bad? You mention the Prozac, how long you are now taken it? I have take Prozac now 12 days and that not helped me at all. But many here is told that Prozac would help, and I hope that it would help you! How long you are being without cymbalta? Some days feel like they are the last, but somehow I allways manage to go forward. Maybe the nigths are the worst, when I cant sleep.. How you manages the nights? Don't lost your hope, We both will get through this, somehow!

Attorney_Victim: Can I ask what dose you took when you use Prozac?

And again sorry my grammar mistakes!

Best

Laura

[marbles]

Jen,I hope you are feeling somewhat better.As far as the job>>>it is not my choice of a job but one that I can bare at this time of my life.Every time I go I am sure I will have to go home or have a nervous breakdown while there. Whenever the boss is there around me I get so nervous and brain fogged that I feel scatterbrained and hardly able to get the words out of my mouth.Believe me I live in a day to day life.I am not a alcoholic but I live now by their rules >one day at a time ,sometimes one moment at a time.Its extrememly hard mentally and I feel sad that others are working 2 jobs and I can barely handle the 5 to 6 hour job...makes me feel terrible about myself. I want so bad to be like others but I would just mess everything up because eventually I would have a meltdown.My resume shows job after job. I was not fired ,I would just quit when the stress got high. Still ....after the cybalta, I haven`t felt like myself . Can`t easily get over the bad feelings as I did when I had depressions before.So I truly think cymbalta,does make the body more unbalanced. I trust that the imbalance will get better.....shirl

[75892]

This is my first post. I found this website and thank goodness because I thought I was going crazy. It has been one month since I cold turkeyed off cymbalta. I was on the drug for only a few months and had a racy heart and was jittery. I was on 30 mg everyday and then 30 mg every other day for about a week and then stopped. This was in mid August. Plus I was so jacked up I couldn't sleep and got a perscription for zolpdiem (which I am now hooked on).
The withdrwal symptoms didn't start for about a week. Now I have chills, tremors, can't stand noise and am so sensitive to sound. I have achy joints and fatigue like the flu. Will cry and can't stop.
All I can do is get the kids on the bus and get back in bed and shake with the covers on. I am pale and look horrible.
I have also been driking about 2 glasses of wine at night...anything to try and "feel better" plus tapering off the zolpdiem to 5 mg instead of 10 mg.
Also I have face redness/flushing which is so weird. Sweating and muscle tightness. I'm now seeing a chiropractor.
My question is....how long does this last and is it permanent? I keep saying to myself "this too shall pass" but I don't know if it is true. I feel like I permanently damaged myself and I am never going to be back to normal. Here it is mid September and I feel so weird. Help...when/if does it end?

[iliao93]

Hi 075892, sorry you have need of being here! Then again I'm ever so glad you found us....lots of folks here want to help so your in the right place. I also have had the flushing/sweating issues and it does get better the longer your off Cymbalta. Unfortunately it varies from person to person so no one can say how long it will take. At times it seems like forever.
I think it's kinda like "clock watching" or the old proverb "a watched pot" effect, that's why you'll here from a lot of posters on this forum to try to focus on the pos. progress your making. Look around at the different threads here especially nutrition and what are you feeling. You will find many insights and hidden gems of wisdom from some good people, the way it's set up on this board doesn't make them as easy to find as they could be. Just wander around till you find the posters that ring true with you and then go to your control panel and do some searches for their stuff. I'd make some suggestions but I'm definately partial to certain people. I don't want to presume to choose your "friends" so to speak
I'm on my first 24 hours Cymbalta free after a long slow taper. I have been off of it before and ran into horrible withdrawals so thats how I ended up here, an all too common story sad to say. :cry: Please forgive if I get somewhat off track or am not quite with it, I just don't trust myself right now but still feel compelled to be here and share my experiences and try to be of some assistance to others . I wish you luck and a speedy recovery :!:
Be Well !?
Bobbie

"ALL THAT IS REQUIRED FOR EVIL TO PREVAIL IS FOR GOOD MEN TO DO NOTHING."

[Jenofhearts]

lazup said:

Hi Jenny!

I know what you are feeling.. I'm rigth now weaning from cymbalta. Today is day 13, and everything feels desperate. Sometimes all I can do is crying, like you sayed. But maybe crying is not so bad? You mention the Prozac, how long you are now taken it? I have take Prozac now 12 days and that not helped me at all. But many here is told that Prozac would help, and I hope that it would help you! How long you are being without cymbalta? Some days feel like they are the last, but somehow I allways manage to go forward. Maybe the nigths are the worst, when I cant sleep.. How you manages the nights? Don't lost your hope, We both will get through this, somehow!

Attorney_Victim: Can I ask what dose you took when you use Prozac?

And again sorry my grammar mistakes!

Best

Laura

Hi Laura,
I am still trying to wean off of 20mgs since aug.4th, I saw a doctor last week and he has me on 20mgs of prozac with it. I can't really tell to much difference yet. My nights are not too bad it is my waking up time that is the worst in my tummy, it is not a sick feeling but a super fear feeling, it is awful.. I have learned a few techniques to get through that time, but it seems to always set my day off to a terrible start and it is hard to keep going. I will drop my dose of cymbalta little by little but not until I feel more emotionally stable.
All the best to you, we can make it through this.
Jenny

[Jenofhearts]

Just an added note here, I don't seem to have a lot of the physical symptoms that a lot of the folks on here do (yet) I am much more on the emotional end of the whole thing, terrible anxiety and fear, just a general feeling of dread. Terrified to drop my dosage for fear of the physical symptoms, but I know I must at some point take the dive :?

[mspat08]

Oh Jenny, please hang in there...u can do it..it has almost been 3 wks. for me since stopping cold turkey..but I did read on the nutritional stuff that was good for some of the others ..and I've been taking the triple omega 3-6-9...and high potency antioxidant's A, C, E...and Ive been drinking nothing but green tea (also has antioxidants).but I think the first wks. were the worse :oops: ...good luck...Im saying a prayer for u that all goes well..its not over by a long stretch,,,it has also helped me to log in and listen to what everyone else is going through....stay safe

[iliao93]

Jenofhearts said:

Bobbie,
I was just thinking earlier how this must be like PTSD, I will NEVER forget this time in my life..too much to handle sometimes, all I do is cry. I hate myself for being like this, I know deep deep down it is not my fault, but when you can't function like a "normal" person, ya know grocery shop etc... it really starts to wear you down. I am up late, I am so afraid of how I will feel in the morning, seems to be my worst time. Seems no matter how hard you set your mind to a feel better mode it just doesn't matter, it creeps up like a thief..
Best to you Bobbie and thank you {{{hugs}}}}
Jenny

Jeno, hugs back atcha! I haven't been able to do shopping in "real" stores the time I first started taking Cymbalta. My husband has been doing it all for about 4 years now. Mind you I did a bang up job of throwing lots of $$$ away with the aid of my pc and shipping company's! I was a professional housekeeper before Cymbalta robbed me of any semblance of a life :x . My home is a waking nightmare now, it's going to take me several years to get it where it's fit for human habitation :oops:
Now at least I think I'm grateful I can see it and care. I have managed to keep my kitchen(some) areas, bathrooms and cat boxes clean and useable.
I did start to feel a little less self judgemental when I realized a person didn't have to go to war dressed in a uniform to suffer from PTSD! A war has been going on in our bodies and minds!!! We are; I'm as sure as I can be, (not being a mental health professional) suffering from it. That realization doesn't make much difference in the in things, except how you perceive the scope of your damage and how to deal with it. To my way of thinking, the more the light of knowledge is shed on the enemy...the fewer shadows and corners it has to concel itself. None of us has the power to use the big searchlights but
we do have many flashlights we can use together...hey we're the Cymbalta Resistance!