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#1 Carleeta

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Posted 17 July 2014 - 08:29 PM

On Thursdays we can throw back to the way it was weeks ago, months ago, years ago, and compare it to today.  

 

I'm using this for where I was when I was when I was on Cymbalta and now where I am off Cymbalta.

 

The day I came off Cymbalta fully I was totally convinced this is what I wanted to do.  Today I am happy to be Cymbalta and glad I made this change in my life.

 

Five months ago, I was petrified and having night sweats, panic attacks every day, sometimes multiple attacks a day. Unable to sleep even with ambien, sick to my stomach., brain zaps, and fear. 


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Posted 17 July 2014 - 08:39 PM

Oh wow - 5 months ago I had been off the poison cold turkey for just a little over a month.  I thought I was dying...

 

I was crying much of the time, having vivid dreams, extremely tired and no appetite.  I had never felt that horrible in my life.  Had no idea what was going on with my brain - no memory, could not concentrate on anything and just wanted to be alone.  Good thing I live with only 2 dogs - no people!

 

Gads, I was a mess.  I still don't feel 100% but sooooooo much better and I know that I'll make it - even with the occasional anxiety and sleep problems.  I have faith that they will, in time, go away.

 

I will NEVER take an anti-depressant again....

 

I am so thankful for all of you wonderful people here on this forum - I received so much help and support from you all! :) 


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Posted 17 July 2014 - 08:46 PM

TryinginFl.  So proud of where you are today. I'm proud of where I am today.

 

Looks like I'll be posting on Thursdays and remembering what was and knowing what is and have a great feeling inside on Thursdays, which should lead to a great Friday, in time to enjoy the weekend.... :hug:


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Posted 17 July 2014 - 08:49 PM

In 1998 I was first prescribed Cymbalta. Been on and off it until January of 2014. Today, throw back Thursday, I'm Cymbalta free and anti anxiety meds free.  In reality I' free!


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Posted 17 July 2014 - 08:51 PM

hehehe ... when I first read the thread topic, I thought it said "Throw up Thursday" ...

Which was pretty much what I was still doing 5 months ago ... let's see ... mid February ... I'd been off the poison since the first week in December ... so, no, I think my puking stopped in late January ... was the worst in December, then started fading ... but 5 months ago I was totally weak, having horrible optic neuritis, lying in bed with a blindfold over my eyes to keep the light out, and ice packs over my eyes and around my head ...

Oh yeah ... I'm thrilled to be where I am today ...

Another great topic, Carleeta, thanks!


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Posted 17 July 2014 - 09:59 PM

FiveNotions. .This is no joke, but I remember your vomiting days and the ice packs on your eyes..Strange how we don't know what all of us look like...but the picture I have of you with the ice packs on your eyes is there in my memory. ..ha ha ha...I even remember during that time you were cleaning out rooms, getting rid of things you felt could benefit others. .and cleaning the crown molding in your bathroom...ha ha ha ha.....I chose not to picture you vomiting...ha ha ha...

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Posted 24 July 2014 - 06:46 PM

I'm throwing back today's Thursday with a heck of a better last thursday...Throwingback to last thursday, I wasn't in the back, neck, and leg pain as I am today...wow! The best thing is I'm off cymbalta and other anti depressent on this thursday...yipeeeeee. ..

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Posted 24 July 2014 - 06:55 PM

Carleeta,

 

I'm so sorry that you are in pain...do you have something to take for it?  How soon do you get the results from your xrays?  I'm sorry this isn't last Thursday for you too!

 

Love, hugs and prayers,

Liz :hug:


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Posted 24 July 2014 - 07:10 PM

oh gee, Carleeta .. now I understand what you meant on the "positive events" thread about sitting up for a minute ... I am so sorry you're in such pain .... I sure hope you've got something to take for it!


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Posted 24 July 2014 - 07:43 PM

Love the throwback Thursday idea
My Thursday started with the first time in 2 months I have wakened with joint pain...sorry to say,, I startd cymcrapa to help with extreme fibro pain...and it did take the pain away and I was lovin it until the side affects
So have been weaning off, and today was the first morning I realized what it felt like to have my toe joints hurt, really a drag
But a I am still positive, I am weaning off, and once off no matter what I go through, I will get on something else to help with the pain other than a BRAIN drug!
Thanks to you all

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Posted 24 July 2014 - 08:16 PM

NSAI...

 

Did I mention the massage therapy for fibro to you?  I have it every week and it really helps!  Insurance pays for it with a RX every 90 days!

 

Just a thought...I understand the pain :( :(

 

I also take Hydrocodone for the pain....   do you take anything now?


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Posted 25 July 2014 - 10:26 PM

I love the throw back Thursday idea!  

 

My strange throw-back-ish moment - I was reading the newspaper tonight and stumbled across an "In Memory" of a friend I knew who died five years ago.  I was thinking back to that time and it seems impossible that five years has passed.

 

Strangely enough, I've said all along that I took Cymbalta for five years.  I realize now that's not accurate.  Not that's it's significant - but I was already taking this medication at that time.  How did all this time go by so quickly?  I've changed so much - and continue to change.  Why did it never occur to anyone that my medications might need to change as well?

 

What strikes me the most - is I don't remember crying when he died.  I know I did - I'm sure I did - but I just remember the situation with a numbness.  Not a trauma numb - just numb.  That doesn't make sense - but I'm really struggling to make sense of it.

 

I cried when I read it in the paper.  I'm choked up now just writing this.  

 

I'm just so thankful I can feel again - as conflicting and difficult as it is.  Does that make any sense?


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Posted 26 July 2014 - 02:15 AM

Yes, Amy, it make perfect sense ... the drug does numb us ... at least, it did me... I didn't really "feel," I sort of sleep-walked through my life ... from the outside, to others, I seemed just fine... and yet inside me, I was just observing life, but not participating in it. After Cymbalta, once the huge, irrational mood swings faded, I started getting my genuine emotions back, along with memories ... I was, and still am, amazed that I'm able to laugh, cry and feel all the other range of human emotions again... and, along with all the things I'd forgotten, come the emotions associated with them, that I would have experienced back as things happened, but that were all hidden/masked by the drug ...

 

Welcome to being alive again!


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Posted 31 July 2014 - 08:47 AM

Well it's throw back Thursday again. 2 years ago I had my Izzy (Isabella, my cat) with me. Today I will check and see how she is doing at the hospital. 2 years ago today I was all out of sorts and didn't know if I was coming or going. This indicates I have more of a grip on myself than I did two years ago.

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Posted 31 July 2014 - 09:20 AM

 

five months ago i was still on the C at 30 mgs per day, still working and quite honestly, feeling at the top of my game. i had given notice at work because my husband and i were working toward our goal of relocating to where we bought another investment property. my job was getting in the way of that and we did the math and thanks to savings, other income and his work we thought we could afford it. i had also grown to hate the job i used to love and the company decided to drop healthcare benefits - so i had no reason to to work there anymore. because i was feeling so good about my situation for the past several years i had made the decision to take advantage of not having a 40+ hour/wk commitment and wean off the C. i had tried almost two years prior and the stress of work made it impossible. now i could withdraw and function at my own pace. my last day at work was feb 28 and i started the quick modified taper - no bead counting - monday march 3.

 

it was exactly 11 weeks ago today - thursday, may 15 -  that i was finally off cymbalta for good. i've put on several posts lately that it was may 13, but i went back and checked the calendar. i had already been going through some withdrawal symptoms so i was feeling rough, mostly fatigue, gastro stuff and excessive worry (not full blown anxiety yet) - but nothing like the onslaught that was coming. i am grateful i took the plunge and that i am not working while going through this. i no longer feel at the "top of my game" but then, neither does the cancer patient going through chemo. i knew that it would be tough and i know that i will benefit in the long run so that's how i'm taking it. 


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Posted 31 July 2014 - 11:03 AM

Awesome post, brzghoff! Bravo!


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Posted 31 July 2014 - 08:47 PM

Another throw back Thursday...two years ago I was in such a state of anxiety and depression the doctor had me back on Cymbalta after the passing of my father.  Today there is more Cymbalta in my life!


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Posted 21 August 2014 - 02:11 PM

It's throw back Thursday.....yipeeee.  About a week ago, I was running all over the place from stores, to bakeries, and then visiting my daughter in law and grandson in the hospital.  Wow how much I have accomplished in one day.  Today a week later, I'm not moving around so much and find myself board...lol lol lol.  Have a wonderful Throw back Thursday today everyone..... 


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Posted 02 October 2014 - 08:50 PM

5 years ago while on cymbalta I was working in a lab when the H1N1 was hitting the US. Today I was called back to work (my choice) for the fear of Ebola. This time I'm happy to say I'm cymbalta free.....

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Posted 09 October 2014 - 07:36 PM

It's throw back Thursday. ....About 10 years ago I can say I was still wearing 4 inch high heals, today I'm happy to say I love my flats....lol lol lol....then again I was on antidepressents.... Now I'm happy off cymbalta and all antidepressants and feeling happy that's all behind me....yipeeeeee

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Posted 09 October 2014 - 07:40 PM

Outta "likes" Carleeta, but that's a good one! :D


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Posted 09 October 2014 - 07:42 PM

I usually see my therapist on a Thursday, so I'll consider that my "throw back" as I've been seeing him for over 4 yrs!!!  :)


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Posted 09 October 2014 - 07:49 PM

I usually see my therapist on a Thursday, so I'll consider that my "throw back" as I've been seeing him for over 4 yrs!!!  :)

...yipeeeeee, tryinginfl in fl...therapy is a great outlet.....



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