I was advised NOT to bead count by my doctor. The response from my friends when I explained bead counting was "....you mean like a drug addict?"
Yes. Completely like a drug addict. It's 100% humbling that a cap full of beads will affect my life so deeply.
I'm still doing it...and doing it....and unless something changes I'll be doing it into September. This place has helped me to accept that a timeline is really not that helpful, but listening to my body is. I've learned that counting really does matter - when I started I would just knock out a dash of them as if I was measuring salt. I found the mantra "Listen to your body".
I'm down to 14 beads and there are days I look at them in my hand and want to just throw them all away and be done with it. Then I think about the summer, things I want to do and things I need to do. I know that while I'll move slower in the morning, be nauseated all day long, and the bathroom will be the most visited place - at this point it could be SOOOOO much worse.
I appreciate the your words, scared, but I feel the same way about everyone who hasn't counted beads because to me - that is AMAZING!
