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#1 Ramona80

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Posted 28 June 2015 - 10:08 AM

This has been the hardest 3 months of my life. (And that's saying something.) I have trusted doctors. I've lost count of how many times a doctor has said, "Don't worry, this will work, this will make it better," and then it does the opposite, it makes everything worse. 

 

I did not want to increase my Cymbalta to 90 mg, but had no choice as my doctor wouldn't write for a lower amount. At first 90 seemed to be OK. Although not long after starting, I noticed I was waking up with my heart pounding and throughout the day, any standing up or doing any activity makes my heart race. I'm talking, like 3 beats per second. It's still doing this. I also have heart palpitations and sweating. But the worst is, as exhausted as I get, it is hard to get sleepy. When I do go to bed, I toss and turn for a long time, and then when I do fall asleep, I keep getting jerked back awake (hypnic jerks / sleep myoclonus). This started happening around 10 days on 90 mg. It happens for anywhere from 1 hour to several hours. Over and over, just as I fall asleep, some part of my body jerks and yanks me out of sleep. I also wake up too early in the morning, and feel tired and unwell all day.

 

I called my psychiatrist and she wants me to come down from 90 mg to 80 mg. She wanted to to drop straight down, but as I ran in to trouble doing that before, I am tapering. 

 

I try to keep myself held together for the family, but every once in a while (like this morning) I just break down and sob. This has been the scariest thing. I just want good quality of life again. I try to look for hope. I feel little sparks of light within myself, and I try to remember them, and feel hopeful that this will eventually pass, that this is temporary, that I will get off this drug.

 

I don't want any of these scary drug effects to be permanent. Some days are harder than others to find hope.


#2 Camino2015

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Posted 28 June 2015 - 10:26 AM

Ramona, you helped me, and I hope I can help you- I had those awful hypnic jerks, and I know how horrific they are. But they will go away, I promise. You are 100% not alone.


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Posted 28 June 2015 - 05:07 PM

Not alone at all.


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    In the future want 2B off Cymbalta! The physicians are no help. Looking for understanding, support & encouragement as I know this is a difficult process. Want 2 be of help 2 others who will find this site looking for same things as I.

Posted 28 June 2015 - 09:40 PM

TheEquusWoman is here for you. Just like they were for me when I found this forum over a year ago now. I've been off the poison since March of this year but it took me over 4 months to SLOWLY wean off the crap drug. I was on it for 18 months for severe chronic LBP. The ppl here can help you do this. My withdrawal was pure hell but I journeyed thru it and with their help made it and you can too!

Hang in there. Prayers for you darlin'... :hug:





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