Hello everyone,
I want to take the time to tell you all that I am not the strong person you all think I am. Here recently I seem to give better advice than I do handling my own problems. The ugly monster anxiety has reared her ugly head and will not leave me alone. Just as I feel I have shoved her out the door, I hear a knock and there she is again. She just won't go away for good.
Symptoms:
** Jumping at the slightest noise
** Crying over absolutely nothing
** Fighting to control the anger that anxiety gives me
My children, my precious angels they are only kids and know no better. They get rowdy and it gets to me and I don't know what to do. I grab my head and breath deeply to calm down and they say "Mommy what's wrong are you mad at us?"
No, sweet angels Mommy is not mad at you. How do you explain such horrible things to your children so that they can understand it's not their fault.
My husband, my ever loving love of my life. The man of my dreams who I almost lost and got back is sweet and caring. He is strong and helpful and kind. He calls me his best friend and I call him mine, but I feel he tries harder than I do and I owe him more than that.
Tears coming now. I will see you all again later.
Raven