still holding at 100 mgs of lamotrigine, but i think i may reach a point to where i can start stepping down again. we close on the rental property we're selling on friday - a big source of stress that will soon be gone.
also, i've spent the past month creating plans around seeing the totality of the solar eclipse and researching the best viewing spot outside of the crowds - success! yesterday was an awesome never-to-be-forgotten day! we're at our vacation house in NC and were able to drive less than an hour to see the moon obscure the sun, the baileys beads, the diamond ring - and the stars and even venus - brighter than ever, all at 2:36 in the afternoon! i allowed myself to get stressed out <sigh> by agonizing over if i was making the best decisions on location - timing of departure to our chosen spot and the one thing totally out of my control - the weather. but everything was perfect. gorgeous day, not too hot at 4000 feet along the blue ridge parkway. the half hour before and after the totality the temps cooled down significantly due to the moon's coverage of the sun - also the sun's brightness itself was as like a dimmer switch on a lightbulb, gradually going down down down until it was as dark a night. wow! there were about 50 of us gathered aolng one of the many scenic overlooks on the parkway - a great crowd, non of the circus like atmosphere of all the festivals that brought a lot of traffic that we managed to avoid.
what remains its the memory of a life time - and a major reduction in anxiety! my job security is still in question - as the company is getting sold - but for some reason that isn't ratcheting up concern like i thought it might. so this weekend i may try to drop between 5mg and 6.25. fingers crossed...