Jump to content



Photo

Krisann's Diary


  • Please log in to reply
50 replies to this topic

#31 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 15 July 2010 - 11:33 AM

Hey KrisAnn-

Wow- your day 7 1/2 is exactly what I go through physically too! It's one of the worst feelings for me.. I almost would rather have kidney stones for the day than those symptoms. I agree also that I would much, MUCH rather feel things physically than emotionally though.

It sounds like you are doing well though- staying on top of things around the house and also with the kids and fun activities. I wrote on my wall today.. today is the best that I have felt in weeks. And now I just want to get everything done around my place at once.. hmm.. could I be Super Woman just for one day? I'm sure going to try. :) I posted pics of the bracelet I made on my page too.

Keep me/us posted on how you are doing. I am honestly in an even better mood after reading about how upbeat you have been the past few days. :D I'm about to go on a lower dose in 2 days.. so we'll see how I'm doing then, but for now- what a great Thursday!

#32 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 15 July 2010 - 11:35 AM

Hey KrisAnn-

Wow- your day 7 1/2 is exactly what I go through physically too! It's one of the worst feelings for me.. I almost would rather have kidney stones for the day than those symptoms. I agree also that I would much, MUCH rather feel things physically than emotionally though.

It sounds like you are doing well though- staying on top of things around the house and also with the kids and fun activities. I wrote on my wall today.. today is the best that I have felt in weeks. And now I just want to get everything done around my place at once.. hmm.. could I be Super Woman just for one day? I'm sure going to try. :) I posted pics of the bracelet I made on my page too.

Keep me/us posted on how you are doing. I am honestly in an even better mood after reading about how upbeat you have been the past few days. :D I'm about to go on a lower dose in 2 days.. so we'll see how I'm doing then, but for now- what a great Thursday!

#33 JustJulz

JustJulz

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 34 posts
  • LocationMichigan
  • why_joining:
    support and information to become a healthier Me

Posted 15 July 2010 - 11:49 AM

Hi krisann,

Right now, I can barely close my hands, tho typing is okay. Does it seem to get better or worse for you with weather or the temps? It has been so hot here, and that's when I noticed that my hands hurt so much.

I was told that Cymbalta would possibly help my little aches and pains (fibromyalgia diagnosis a few years ago), so maybe it has been masking the pain. I am also a little arthritic in my hands, but that is usually in the winter. To top it off, I have osteoarthritis and have gotten two new hips in the last two years. I am not feeling any pain in any of my other joints, just the hands. A lot!

I ought to be taking my glucosamine and chondrointin stuff again- I stopped taking them while I have been dealing with the hip surgeries and depression, et al. Bad move on my part I think. I'll go back on them and see if it helps- tho I know from experience that it takes 6 weeks to feel the full benefit. I have been taking my multi-vits more regularly lately though. That part is hard when you can't even remember what day it is and what you have or haven't taken yet. That is getting better, thankfully.

That's something else to consider in this whole process- it takes 6 weeks to have a complete changeover of blood cells and such in your body, through the normal process of cellular aging and regeneration. I'll bet that will contribute to how long it takes to fully recover after completely stopping, as long as there is no other permanent damage.

Oh Cymbalta, how I love to hate you!

#34 JustJulz

JustJulz

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 34 posts
  • LocationMichigan
  • why_joining:
    support and information to become a healthier Me

Posted 15 July 2010 - 11:50 AM

Oh! Did you have a funnel cake?? LOL Have one for me!

#35 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 15 July 2010 - 02:40 PM

Oh! Did you have a funnel cake?? LOL Have one for me!


The funnel cake was delicious! I had a rootbear float with homemade ice cream and saspirilla from a glass bottle.. yum! Going back to the fair tonite. :) Think I will get a chicken on a stick tonite and a yardstick from the vendor building. Maybe play some bingo. :)

KrisAnn

#36 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 15 July 2010 - 11:41 PM

Well, anxiety has reared its ugly head tonite. Had a great evening with my boyfriend, rode harley to the fair, ate at a little diner for supper than spent a few hours together. Very nice and relaxing. However, as I have stated before I am in the process of a divorce. Without laying out every tiny detail, I will just say that I will need to be looking for a different place to live in October.

I have been dating my boyfriend for 8 months, and I guess I was hoping that by October he would be ready to move in together as that would solve some financial issues for both of us. But he is not ready. I know Im being a mean, selfish bitch for being upset with him for that, but I am. Im a single Mom with few options other than moving from Iowa to Texas to live with a distant aunt. To do that I would have to leave two of my children behind. My relationship would also be over and Ive gotten extremely attached.

When I feel anxious and helpless my first instinct is always to protect myself by running away and hiding. That is what I feel like doing now. I feel like breaking off the relationship and saying "fuck you, I'll figure it out myself". I mean, who was I kidding anyway? Why in the hell would he want to be responsible for someone like me? What difference does it make anyway? If hes not ready now, will he ever be?

I don't know if Im capable of making ANY rational decisions right now, so I guess I better let it be for now and see how I feel in a few days. But not figuring out where Im gonna live is making me panicky. I wish I could stop worrying about it. I wish everything didn't feel so hopeless. I wish I could stop crying.

KrisAnn

#37 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 16 July 2010 - 02:41 AM

Day 9?

Geez, I must reallybe losing it! I could have sworn I posted this morning! Anyhow, I got some stress tab vitamins, dramamine and meclizine. The dramamine and meclizine for dizziness are a godsend!

Weight: 177.6

So I was feeling pretty anxious earlier about finances. Came home, took my bedtime meds: Cymbalta, benadryl, hydroxyzine. About an hour later Im feeling pretty calm. I also sat at computer in a pissy mood and decided to finally balance my checking account (first time in 4 months) and pay up my bills, then figure out EXACTLY how much money I have and how much I can afford for rent each month. Thank God I have anxiety or I would never get anything done! :P

Anyhow, the funny thing is, I have enough money and then some to pay for rent at a really nice apartment complex I've had my eye on :D I really need to learn to not freak the heck out and actually DO something when Im worried.. lol!

And now, for my withdrawal moment of the day: Tonite, when I was at my boyfriends house, I saw a rabbit hop across the bathroom floor as I was sitting on the toilet going to the bathroom. My boyfriend does not own a rabbit. So Im sitting there with my pants around my ankles wondering if there REALLY was a rabbit or if I was hallucinating now, on top of all my other symptoms? So I yelled out, "ummmm.. did you buy a rabbit?" So we both ran around trying to see if we could find the critter, and I could tell he was looking, but not real hard cuz he thought I was crazy.. when low and behold! The rabbit appeared! :P Come to find out, my boyfriends son purchased it and "forgot" to tell anyone. lmao!

KrisAnn

#38 Debbie M.

Debbie M.

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 92 posts
  • why_joining:
    weaning from cymbalta

Posted 16 July 2010 - 02:52 PM

Day 9?

Geez, I must reallybe losing it! I could have sworn I posted this morning! Anyhow, I got some stress tab vitamins, dramamine and meclizine. The dramamine and meclizine for dizziness are a godsend!

Weight: 177.6

So I was feeling pretty anxious earlier about finances. Came home, took my bedtime meds: Cymbalta, benadryl, hydroxyzine. About an hour later Im feeling pretty calm. I also sat at computer in a pissy mood and decided to finally balance my checking account (first time in 4 months) and pay up my bills, then figure out EXACTLY how much money I have and how much I can afford for rent each month. Thank God I have anxiety or I would never get anything done! :P

Anyhow, the funny thing is, I have enough money and then some to pay for rent at a really nice apartment complex I've had my eye on :D I really need to learn to not freak the heck out and actually DO something when Im worried.. lol!

And now, for my withdrawal moment of the day: Tonite, when I was at my boyfriends house, I saw a rabbit hop across the bathroom floor as I was sitting on the toilet going to the bathroom. My boyfriend does not own a rabbit. So Im sitting there with my pants around my ankles wondering if there REALLY was a rabbit or if I was hallucinating now, on top of all my other symptoms? So I yelled out, "ummmm.. did you buy a rabbit?" So we both ran around trying to see if we could find the critter, and I could tell he was looking, but not real hard cuz he thought I was crazy.. when low and behold! The rabbit appeared! :P Come to find out, my boyfriends son purchased it and "forgot" to tell anyone. lmao!

KrisAnn

:D LOL :D

#39 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 16 July 2010 - 09:29 PM

Day 10

Weight 177.8

Took benadryl, 24 mg cymbalta, and hydroxyzine at bedtime. This am took stress tab multivitamin, ritalin.

Feeling pretty good today, some anxiety but tolerable with bendadryl. Went back out to the fair tonite and walked around which was fun. Have to work tonite, then 12 hour shifts all weekend.

Hope everyone is doing well. So far, withdrawal hasnt been to intense and I think I might actually survive! lol

KrisAnn

#40 cookie

cookie

    God-like

  • Members
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 1,050 posts
  • why_joining:
    In the future I would like to stop cymbalta

Posted 17 July 2010 - 01:54 AM

Day 9?

Geez, I must reallybe losing it! I could have sworn I posted this morning! Anyhow, I got some stress tab vitamins, dramamine and meclizine. The dramamine and meclizine for dizziness are a godsend!

Weight: 177.6

So I was feeling pretty anxious earlier about finances. Came home, took my bedtime meds: Cymbalta, benadryl, hydroxyzine. About an hour later Im feeling pretty calm. I also sat at computer in a pissy mood and decided to finally balance my checking account (first time in 4 months) and pay up my bills, then figure out EXACTLY how much money I have and how much I can afford for rent each month. Thank God I have anxiety or I would never get anything done! :P

Anyhow, the funny thing is, I have enough money and then some to pay for rent at a really nice apartment complex I've had my eye on :D I really need to learn to not freak the heck out and actually DO something when Im worried.. lol!

And now, for my withdrawal moment of the day: Tonite, when I was at my boyfriends house, I saw a rabbit hop across the bathroom floor as I was sitting on the toilet going to the bathroom. My boyfriend does not own a rabbit. So Im sitting there with my pants around my ankles wondering if there REALLY was a rabbit or if I was hallucinating now, on top of all my other symptoms? So I yelled out, "ummmm.. did you buy a rabbit?" So we both ran around trying to see if we could find the critter, and I could tell he was looking, but not real hard cuz he thought I was crazy.. when low and behold! The rabbit appeared! :P Come to find out, my boyfriends son purchased it and "forgot" to tell anyone. lmao!

KrisAnn


I hope it is not hallucination.

#41 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 17 July 2010 - 11:42 PM

Day 11.. or what the hell happened?

Weight: 178 (atleast Im not gaining anymore)
at bedtime took cymbalta 24 mg, hydroxyzine, and 50 mg of benadryl. Slept 6 hours. Woke up ANGRY, anxious, and very irritable. I was mad about a coworker not showing up on time for her shift yesterday, My ex apparently trying to get full custody of my 2 sons, and my boyfriend insinuating that maybe I was making all my symptoms up. That he didn't think I was on cymbalta long enough to really go thru withdrawal. That it would be easy enough for me to get online and find all the symptoms and fake them. That maybe I really don't need ritalin, that maybe Im not really ADD. That he doesn't understand how I can go from having a perfectly wonderful evening to be anxious and hopeless in a matter of minutes... which makes him think Im faking it.

I was having a hard time not saying anything, as I dont really know what Im supposed to say to him about any of that without freaking out and ripping his head off. So I said nothing and stewed about it for hours. Finally, I took a benadryl and drank a cup of tea. Then I felt better, but tired.

Feeling much more hopeless tonite with some suicidal thoughts. This made me wonder.... do you think people who have a history of suicidal ideation have an easier time NOT committing suicide during withdrawal as we are already prepared for how to deal with those recurrent thoughts? Just an idea...

KrisAnn

#42 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 18 July 2010 - 01:29 AM

Hey K-

Listening to Enya, 'May it Be', right now.. trying to calm myself down. Just wrote on my page about my night. Things from my past- with my mom and from my ex. Feeling pretty crappy.

Also- my internet connection isn't that great, so that's why I only write every other day or so.. that's as often as I can get online.

First of all- the rabbit story made me BURST out laughing. I startled my sleeping dog. That is just great- and I know what you mean about sometimes wondering if something is real or crazy because sometimes I'm feeling like I AM crazy.

Next, about your night and suicidal thoughts... that really sucks. I'm sorry that you feel that way. Yes, I do think that people who have thought through different 'options', are better at combating those same thoughts they next time they come up.. but also, scarily, at perfecting those same thoughts too. I have much more to write about that.. but for right now, in my current state- I need to tell you, flat out: Don't do it. DON'T YOU EVER DO IT. I lost my mom, she was 50 years old, to a car accident. She will never see my future children, or know now that I got out of my marriage, and see my life that I have now. And from my side.. I will never get to say I love you, to her again. I will never get to say I'm sorry for things that I was told as a child and grew up believing, and then found out weren't true after she died. This could be you. You could be this person that is forever missed, that is thought of with sadness and longing and a broken heart. I know that as a mom, you give and give, and aren't always appreciated or thanked. I think the line between self and others becomes even more fuzzy when a person becomes a good parent. And really- suicide is like.. the ultimate selfishness. I was suicidal in high school. I look back and am so thankful for my close friends and their families that somehow helped me keep it together. And since I went to college, and then finished college, and got married, and then divorced.. I somehow lost 'suicide' as an option. I don't know how it happened and I never realized it until right now as I type this to you. It's not a religious reason... it's just.. nothing's worth it. I look at the people that I have met since high school, the friends, the pets, the travels, the love I've experienced.. and it's almost like I was given a death sentence back then that I was somehow pardoned from. Now, I just have to live the best life I can. Each day is like an extra day that I'm almost not supposed to have... and yes, I honestly waste about 5 out of 7 days a week with non-important things. But then one night I take a walk at sunset or help someone carry in a bag of groceries- and then that day has it's sparkle and it's reason that I'm here.

I'm not trying to get preachy. I guess I need to be more constructive towards you.. my thought is- when you start to feel or think that way.. you need to find something to give yourself an 'out'. For me when my mom passed, it was smoking a cigarette. If something got to be too much, I could go have a smoke- just step outside for 5 minutes or so, away from that thought or person/place, and just focus on the weather or birds or whatever. It was a break for my brain. Find that for yourself. What interests you? What can you do that wouldn't take too much time, but will just snap you out of it for a little bit? Go make a cup of tea..Force yourself to read a certain comic. Something you can do almost anywhere to focus on something else.

I'll stop now. I really hope you know that this all comes from a place of caring from me.. we've never met, and have only known each other for a week.. but there is a reason we found each other and are keeping in touch. I do care.

Your post inspired me to go make a cup of tea.. extra honey of course. I'll be thinking of you.

#43 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 18 July 2010 - 11:28 PM

Hey K-

Listening to Enya, 'May it Be', right now.. trying to calm myself down. Just wrote on my page about my night. Things from my past- with my mom and from my ex. Feeling pretty crappy.

Also- my internet connection isn't that great, so that's why I only write every other day or so.. that's as often as I can get online.

First of all- the rabbit story made me BURST out laughing. I startled my sleeping dog. That is just great- and I know what you mean about sometimes wondering if something is real or crazy because sometimes I'm feeling like I AM crazy.

Next, about your night and suicidal thoughts... that really sucks. I'm sorry that you feel that way. Yes, I do think that people who have thought through different 'options', are better at combating those same thoughts they next time they come up.. but also, scarily, at perfecting those same thoughts too. I have much more to write about that.. but for right now, in my current state- I need to tell you, flat out: Don't do it. DON'T YOU EVER DO IT. I lost my mom, she was 50 years old, to a car accident. She will never see my future children, or know now that I got out of my marriage, and see my life that I have now. And from my side.. I will never get to say I love you, to her again. I will never get to say I'm sorry for things that I was told as a child and grew up believing, and then found out weren't true after she died. This could be you. You could be this person that is forever missed, that is thought of with sadness and longing and a broken heart. I know that as a mom, you give and give, and aren't always appreciated or thanked. I think the line between self and others becomes even more fuzzy when a person becomes a good parent. And really- suicide is like.. the ultimate selfishness. I was suicidal in high school. I look back and am so thankful for my close friends and their families that somehow helped me keep it together. And since I went to college, and then finished college, and got married, and then divorced.. I somehow lost 'suicide' as an option. I don't know how it happened and I never realized it until right now as I type this to you. It's not a religious reason... it's just.. nothing's worth it. I look at the people that I have met since high school, the friends, the pets, the travels, the love I've experienced.. and it's almost like I was given a death sentence back then that I was somehow pardoned from. Now, I just have to live the best life I can. Each day is like an extra day that I'm almost not supposed to have... and yes, I honestly waste about 5 out of 7 days a week with non-important things. But then one night I take a walk at sunset or help someone carry in a bag of groceries- and then that day has it's sparkle and it's reason that I'm here.

I'm not trying to get preachy. I guess I need to be more constructive towards you.. my thought is- when you start to feel or think that way.. you need to find something to give yourself an 'out'. For me when my mom passed, it was smoking a cigarette. If something got to be too much, I could go have a smoke- just step outside for 5 minutes or so, away from that thought or person/place, and just focus on the weather or birds or whatever. It was a break for my brain. Find that for yourself. What interests you? What can you do that wouldn't take too much time, but will just snap you out of it for a little bit? Go make a cup of tea..Force yourself to read a certain comic. Something you can do almost anywhere to focus on something else.

I'll stop now. I really hope you know that this all comes from a place of caring from me.. we've never met, and have only known each other for a week.. but there is a reason we found each other and are keeping in touch. I do care.

Your post inspired me to go make a cup of tea.. extra honey of course. I'll be thinking of you.



Thank you for your kind words I am! :)

Having suicidal thoughts is really nothing new to me. I have had them here and there when things seemed too much to bear since I was 13. I have had some very serious attempts a few times, but I guess it wasn't my time as someone always found me before I was dead. Generally, these thoughts are fleeting, as I process in my head that it will get better, and remind myself how hard it would be for my children without me. Having been that low, tried to die, and then things did get better over and over has taught me that it does always get better.

That doesn't stop those thoughts from popping up every now and then though. I just don't act on them.

Sorry you are having a rough time, I hope tomorrow is a better day :)

KrisAnn

#44 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 21 July 2010 - 05:03 AM

Day 13

Cymbalta 20 mg, hydroxyzine, benadryl 50 mg > at bedtime. I am taking my ritalin 10 mg TID, and dramamine, meclizine, and ibuprofen as needed. Occasionally, if I get too anxious, I take a 25 mg benadryl as well.... though I don't like to because it makes me anxious.

Weight: 179 :( Not gonna worry about this too much until I am off the cymbalta completely

Symptoms:
Fatigue
occasional dizziness
Increased sinus allergy symptoms

Otherwise, I am feeling really good :)

Yesterday went on a 2 hour harely trip to eat at Hickory Park. I had a chili dog with was the size of 4 foot long hotdogs. I couldn't even get it in my mouth and had to eat it with a fork and knife! But yummmm! delicious! :)

I have decided to move closer to work. I am looking into a 3 bedroom apartment for me and 2 of my children. I had a talk with my son tonite before work and he said he wants to move with me rather than stay with his father. That made me feel like maybe I don't suck horribly after all. ;)

I have a bottle of ibuprofen in my car incase I get a headache from withdrawals. Gelcaps. Do you know what happens to a bottle of gelcaps when the heat index is 100 degrees? Well, needless to say, I now own one giant lumpy ibuprofen!

KrisAnn

#45 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 22 July 2010 - 05:52 PM

You sound GREAT! That's so wonderful!!

Good luck on your place too! I have found my last 3 places on craigslist. Be careful because there are some scammers on there, but I was able to find nice places and also talk them down in price. I don't know if your area is big enough to be on there, CL is usually the bigger cities- but it's worth checking out.

Keep on, keeping on!!! :)

:lol:

#46 krisann

krisann

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 79 posts
  • LocationIowa
  • why_joining:
    I wish to stop taking cymbalta with the least amount of side effects possible

Posted 22 July 2010 - 09:14 PM

Day 14

Apartment didn't work out. Apparently, I make too much money to be eligable for any apartments. Funny thing is, I barely scrape by. :( I walked into my house to find the ceiling leaking so bad the kitchen was flooded. Theres mold all over the ceiling from being constantly wet. Squirrels have gotten into my roof and have started chewing on the wiring. And my 8 year old can't sleep in his bed anymore if it rains because it leaks on him. So, I am a bit depressed, anxious, and frustrated today.

My boyfriend and I had plans, but I told him Ive been crying all day and feeling pretty awful, didn't think I would be good company. He convinced me to come over anyway. He has a 24 year old son and a 21 year old daughter. He said his son wasn't gonna stay tonite, even though he's been there practically every night this week. So I said I would try. Well, to make a long story short, his son went into great detail telling us about his sex life and a friends who apparently likes to stick his finger in some girls butt. Even though his sister told him that she didn't wanna hear about it, that it was disgusting, and my boyfriend tried several times to tell him to stop, he kept going. I didn't say anything, just stayed quiet. After awhile, I told my boyfriend I was gonna go home because his son was making me crazy. He blew up at me and said his son is great, didn't do anything wrong, and if I can't see that then I'm the one with the problem, etc.. Then, he broke up with me. :(

Its been a long, bad day. Cant stop the tears.

KrisAnn

#47 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 25 July 2010 - 07:16 PM

Day 14

Apartment didn't work out. Apparently, I make too much money to be eligable for any apartments. Funny thing is, I barely scrape by. :( I walked into my house to find the ceiling leaking so bad the kitchen was flooded. Theres mold all over the ceiling from being constantly wet. Squirrels have gotten into my roof and have started chewing on the wiring. And my 8 year old can't sleep in his bed anymore if it rains because it leaks on him. So, I am a bit depressed, anxious, and frustrated today.

My boyfriend and I had plans, but I told him Ive been crying all day and feeling pretty awful, didn't think I would be good company. He convinced me to come over anyway. He has a 24 year old son and a 21 year old daughter. He said his son wasn't gonna stay tonite, even though he's been there practically every night this week. So I said I would try. Well, to make a long story short, his son went into great detail telling us about his sex life and a friends who apparently likes to stick his finger in some girls butt. Even though his sister told him that she didn't wanna hear about it, that it was disgusting, and my boyfriend tried several times to tell him to stop, he kept going. I didn't say anything, just stayed quiet. After awhile, I told my boyfriend I was gonna go home because his son was making me crazy. He blew up at me and said his son is great, didn't do anything wrong, and if I can't see that then I'm the one with the problem, etc.. Then, he broke up with me. :(

Its been a long, bad day. Cant stop the tears.

KrisAnn



As I read the above about your boyfriend.. I thought to myself.. he doesn't sound like a good guy. Then when I got to the end.. I have to say that it sounds like it might be for the best. But it's hard to say based on one day. I didn't write about it on my wall.. but my guy and I are having issues too. He doesn't love me anymore. He says he still cares about me, and does love me.. but things are different. I don't know what to do. When he is around and we talk about it, I feel so upset- so drained. So numb. And when he is gone.. I feel strong again.... "I am Woman!" I don't know what I REALLY think about it though. The worst about it all- is I love him so much.

I hope your apartment/house situation gets better. That really sucks about the water and rain and leaking! That is such a basic thing- good shelter, you shouldn't have to worry about where you live! That sucks about making too much money too when you are barely getting by. When I went through my divorce- I did the best I could with what very little money that I had. I tried to get on some government programs for my meds and health insurance.. and I made too much money but couldn't afford those things on my own.

Life. I suppose that's what this whole thing is about.. just doing the best I can through every situation.

I look at what I wrote above, and also what you wrote- and the bottom line is that we both sound pretty damn optimistic all things considered. I think that's a good sign. HOPE.

#48 fatandtired

fatandtired

    Member

  • Members
  • PipPip
  • 10 posts
  • why_joining:
    Been on Cymbalta about 5 yrs, total of 10yrs on antidepressants. Currently working with doc to wean and looking for advice to deal with withdrawals. Also willing to share my experience with others.

Posted 28 July 2010 - 11:52 AM

KrisAnn,

I just read your diary...what's going on now? You haven't posted in several days. I too am weaning off of Cymbalta 30mg, so your story is very interesting to me.

Objectively, I wonder why you picked now to come off of Cymbalta? It just sounds like you have so much going on in your life -- divorce, move, financial issues, etc... I completely respect your decision to wean...I'm doing it too. Just curious as to the timing with so much stress in your life? Maybe it's like having a baby and there's never a good time.

I hope you are continuing to make good progress on your wean. Please write with an update!

FatandTired

#49 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 31 July 2010 - 02:16 AM

A friend recently sent me this blog, and I had to pass it on to some of my favorite people on this site- anyone who has felt any 'rage' will love this post!

Check out any of her other posts as well... but be careful if you read them at work- you will laugh out LOUD!! They are HILARIOUS!!!


http://hyperboleanda...ate-spiral.html

#50 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 07 August 2010 - 09:19 PM

Hey..

Are you doing ok? Haven't heard from you in a while...

I hope you are doing great!!!

#51 I am who I am

I am who I am

    Advanced Member

  • Members
  • PipPipPip
  • 75 posts
  • why_joining:
    Trying to quit Cymbalta

Posted 04 October 2010 - 08:29 PM

hellllllooooooooooooooo???????



0 user(s) are reading this topic

0 members, 0 guests, 0 anonymous users