Bead Counting

I may experienced brain zaps, but i am not sure i had a feeling if having a emptness Of mind And For a moment i freeze And i don t know what to do. Is this what is called brain zaps. I feel like my Head like a empty glassa And When i come back to normal my Head is like a full glass. Is Anyone experienced anything like this? Plus does Anyone know how to overcome this sense od shame i feel ? I feel like a stupid and once on a while i feel like i want to die but i don t have any suicidal thoughts thank be to gos

Haven't had the brain zaps as yet. So not much help w/that. Hang in there we gotta make it Ape we just gotta....Support, luv, prayers and hope 4U friend. TheEquuswoman

Ape hang in there!

 

The brain zaps are like electric shocks inside your head- a sharp stabbing pain in your brain. It would spin me around and jerk my head to the left at the same time. Spooky. They started on day 19 from tapering off 30 mg counting beads. I got them intermittently during the day, and they were gone in 5 days.

 

I experienced the blank moments (the empty glass) also. I would walk into a room to get something, or turn around to do something and I would suddenly be empty-headed, with no idea of what I was doing or looking for. I just stood there- blank. I learned that my head (the glass) would begin to refill once I started moving again. This symptom gradually went away.

 

Shame is often associated with depression, but of course it's broader than that, and everybody experiences it to one degree or another.

 

But shame can be painful and debilitating. It can drive you inside a cell of solitude and behind a face that smiles too quickly. It droops the head between sloped shoulders, and flashes furtive eyes that seek a spot to alight safe and unseen. This is where you might not be able to fix it yourself, but a talk with a psychologist will surely help.

 

Much of what gives us shame is not of our making, because we don't consciously engineer the circumstances that put us where we are: we don't pick our DNA; we don't pick our parents; we don't pick the point in Time of our birth; we don't pick the society into which we are born; we don't pick the dogma (religious or otherwise) that has been driven into our heads as children; and we don't pick all the random events that combine with these factors to make us who we are. We don't build our own minds.

 

Ape, the drug and the withdrawal both create new emotional issues and exacerbate existing ones. This will get better and better, but you can get some help with the feeling of shame. Emotions are acute and tender during withdrawal, and it's wonderful to talk to somebody with a sympathetic ear who will work with you, accept you and not judge you. May you be well and flourish!!

Ape hang in there!

 

The brain zaps are like electric shocks inside your head- a sharp stabbing pain in your brain. It would kind of spin me around and jerk my head to the left at the same time. They started on day 19 from tapering off 30 mg counting beads. I got them intermittently during the day, and they were gone in 5 days.

 

I experienced the blank moments (what you describe as the empty glass) also. I would walk into a room to get something, or turn around to do something and I would suddenly be empty-headed, with no idea of what I was doing or looking for. I just stood there blank. I learned that my head (the glass) would begin to refill once I started moving again. This symptom gradually went away.

 

Shame is often associated with depression, but of course it's broader than that, and everybody experiences it. We all feel the shame-lite of modesty and privacy. But shame can be painful and debilitating; it can drive you inside walls of solitude and behind a face that smiles too often, a head that droops and eyes that seek a safe spot to alight unseen. Here is where you might not be able to fix it yourself, but help is out there.

 

thismoment you give such wonderful advice and just have a knack of explaining things. It is so bad the way that the Cymbalta affects our mind.....The short term memory loss is what is so scary for me. I wish that I had NEVER swallowed the first capsule, but that is "hindsight'' as 'they' say and I am now going down the road as I do my bead counting. Thanks so much for the forum members here that are helping me to do this! One day at a time, one bead at a time and one day I SHALL be done w/Cymbalta!

Equuswoman thank you for the kind words!

 

You are already DONE with Cymbalta; you just have a little housekeeping to do with a few beads.

Equuswoman thank you for the kind words!

 

You are already DONE with Cymbalta; you just have a little housekeeping to do with a few beads.

 

LOL thismoment! Yes I guess I am "done" w/Cymbalta. I have been on the 30 beads down for 4 nites now. Do U think I could try and drop 5 more tomorrow evening? I know that some can decrease 5 beads per day/nite. I so want OFF of this poison! But do realize that slow and easy is the best way in which to do this. Thanks so much for being here! 

Equuswoman

How are you feeling? If the symptoms are stable and tolerable you might consider resuming your bead count. There will always be some symptoms as you withdraw, so I think the objective would be to reduce the drug at a rate that enables you to function within the symptoms you have. 

 

If I had to do it again (heaven forefend), I would reduce by 4 beads a day over 10 weeks, and still level off if it got rough.  I did 7 a day with no level off, and it was horrendous!!

 

Okay here's the only horse joke I know: This horse walks into a bar and the bartender says, "so, why the long face?"

Equuswoman

How are you feeling? If the symptoms are stable and tolerable you might consider resuming your bead count. There will always be some symptoms as you withdraw, so I think the objective would be to reduce the drug at a rate that enables you to function within the symptoms you have. 

 

If I had to do it again (heaven forefend), I would reduce by 4 beads a day over 10 weeks, and still level off if it got rough.  I did 7 a day with no level off, and it was horrendous!!

 

Okay here's the only horse joke I know: This horse walks into a bar and the bartender says, "so, why the long face?"

Probably because he was "whinnying off of Cymbalta"!

 

Sorry I couldn't resist.

 

Thanks again for the insight and advice you all share.

Probably because he was "whinnying off of Cymbalta"!

 

Sorry I couldn't resist.

 

Thanks again for the insight and advice you all share.

 Thanks for the horse joke. lol We got to find a little humor along the way as we get off the Cymbalta crap. Yes the bead count method is the ONLY way for me to rid myself of this nasty drug. The other way given me by my physician didn't work. I have found out that I have to go slowly as I am weaning down. I had a problem w/nausea and had to allow that to become tolerable. I am now down 35 beads in my 60mg capsules...got some 30mg if I also need to utilize them. I must say I am learning some patience here while doing t his and that is a good thing for me. Nice 2 meet U here! This forum  has been a God send 2 me. The ppl here can understand where I'm coming from and I appreciated them so MUCH for that! TC TheEquusWoman

I may experienced brain zaps, but i am not sure i had a feeling if having a emptness Of mind And For a moment i freeze And i don t know what to do. Is this what is called brain zaps. I feel like my Head like a empty glassa And When i come back to normal my Head is like a full glass. Is Anyone experienced anything like this? Plus does Anyone know how to overcome this sense od shame i feel ? I feel like a stupid and once on a while i feel like i want to die but i don t have any suicidal thoughts thank be to gos

Hi Ape, Just found your posts. The brain zaps... had a few.. while fast asleep, electrical current zap in my brain, strong enough to wake me up, tha's all I got on that one. The shame, guilt, crying, you name, I'm there... just trying to maintain, stay somewhat busy, hopeful, expectant, this too shall pass. To quote a Cymbalta friend, "Cymbalta, the gift that keeps on giving"!! Prayers for you!! clara

Ape how are you? Thoughts and prayers continue.