done forever with this poison. The nasty, vile, evil, devil's beads...I am 'done' with it as far as swallowing the 'beads' go. But am I 'really' done? I can't say because I don't really know. I have no idea what the future may bring. I don't know if I will experience any w/d symptoms. However if I do I will deal with them as best I can. I will carry on with my life. I am sad of the injuries inflicted upon my brain by that 'drug' that was supposed to help my LBP due to osteoarthritis. Prescribed to me by my pain management physician. I was not even told of the SE of this drug much less the w/d if stopped quite suddenly. I am a nurse and should have "known" better but didn't...ahhh hind sight is 20/20. The past is history...Life goes on and so do "I"...
I did the cold turkey by accident...it sucked. I followed the instructions given me per my pain physician. Dropped from 60mg to 30mg and on day 10 it sucked worse...I found myself knocking on hells door.
I began immediately taking the 60mg Cymbalta again and the symptoms abated.
I began my search on the w.w.w. for info on how to rid myself of this 'drug' supposed to "help" me..
I was then I found the forum Cymbaltawithdrawal.com. It was here that I met fishinghat and thismoment. It was here that I first saw "bead counting" and I must say I did wonder WTH is "bead counting"???
I am now quite good at bead counting because bead counting is the ONLY way that I have been able to get OFF this POISON! For you see I swallowed the last "1" of the little beads...only '1' and now I am DONE!
I want to thank everyone here who has been beside me as I made my journey thru hell and back. I am forever grateful for your encouragement, support and love. For your healing vibes, positive thoughts and prayers. Whatever it was that you did you did it for me and I am always thankful for that...
I don't know what my future holds. How much damage has been done to my brain. But I am hopeful because without hope I have nothing. I am determined to make the best of whatever it is that I have left.
I am so glad to be done, done forever with that drug Cymbalta aka "bad ass" drug IMHO...
I have kept a journal while on this journey. I will continue to do so, making note of my thoughts, feelings emotional and physical . I only wish to "pay it forward" and give back a little of what I've gotten while I've been here on this forum. I will in a future post list the w/d symptoms I experienced while weaning off this drug.
I had an emotional roller coaster kind of a day today. With crying, hurt feelings, irritability and just a "pissed" off kind of frame of mind. I know that tomorrow will be better. If not I will face whatever comes my way.
Thank y'all from the bottom of my heart for helping me make this journey as scary as it was. I've made it! Made it to live my life without Cymbalta altering my brain any longer! Thank my God, my family, my friends and especially my "forum" friends. It is they who could R/T the S*** I've been through. I plan to be here to give support to the ppl here now and the ones who will be fortunate enough to find this forum. A forum that has given me my life back!
"one day @ a time"....but NOT "one bead @ a time" not any longer...No for you see "I" am DONE!
God bless you all,
Now & always,
TheEquusWoman