I am in a very bad state of mind right now, and I want to ask for support, and I need to ask some questions.
First, I am at 50 mg Cymbalta (down from 60) and have been holding at the 50 mg dose for about 10 days or so.
My psychiatrist added in 10 mg of Celexa with this. After a while, since I was not doing well, she had me increase the Celexa to 20 mg. Ever since then (4 days), I've been an emotional wreck. I am shaking, sweating, my heart pounds whenever I move, I am having trouble sleeping, I can't eat, and I feel the most awful anxiety and dread.
I went back down to 10 mg of Celexa this morning, but am still the same so far. The Celexa can make people jittery & anxious, etc.
What I am feeling is MORE than jittery. It's almost a panicky feeling. I don't feel like myself. I feel this horrible sense of dread, like I've been swallowed by this big, black, horrible state I'm in, and I can't find myself. Looking around at my surroundings, everything seems tinted by this dread.
My current plan is to start doing the gradual bead removal (soon), but I am terrified. What I want to know is, is it likely I'll feel panic and dread every day of this for the next several months? Are there good days and bad days, ups and downs? I don't know if I've ever been so scared in my life.