I Know What's Wrong, But I Don't...
#1
Posted 19 April 2017 - 09:21 PM
I don't even know how to start. I am sorry I have been so absent lately. I just have been going through so much.
I made it an entire year with Cymbalta. It was a hell of a year. I hope I don't get in trouble for saying that, but it's the truth. I have fought a horrible battle with prescription anti depressants. I have been back and forth on different ones. None of them have seemed to worked. At first things are fine, then the get worse.
I finally gave up and quit them all together. While it was the right thing to do, doing it cold turkey was more devastating than going cold turkey from Cymbalta. Coming off Paxil is like coming off Heroin. It is horrible and I was only on it for a few months.
My life has turned upside down. The only 3 things that keep me going are my husband and kids. There are some days that I don't care about anything until I see them. They are what keeps me grounded. On the other hand I keep yelling at my kids. The smallest thing sets me off and then here we go again. My husband and I are both stresses right now. For some of the same reasons but some different ones as well. We are arguing again. Nothing like before but we are both fighting hard to keep it from getting bad again.
I barely have an appetite anymore but I still am horribly overweight. I know I need to workout, I even want to, but I don't have the strength. I hurt all over and have some under lying medical issues that we can't find answers for.
Quite frankly I am scared and tired. Tired of fighting. Tired of crying. Tired of wanting to do nothing but cry. Tired of doing nothing. Tired of everything.
This is my Fortress of Solitude and I don't even feel comfortable coming here. I usually come here to help others when I am down and I don't even feel like I can help others right now.
I JUST WANT MY LIFE BACK.ðŸ˜ðŸ˜
Azarath..Metrion...Zinthos,
Raven💫
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#6
Posted 20 April 2017 - 11:02 AM
This just sounds like a repeat of the Cymbalta withdrawal. From what I have read the Paxil withdrawal is comparable to the Cymbalta withdrawal and you may have a couple more months of this. Just because of the excessive time your withdrawal lasted with Cymbalta it does not necessarily mean that your Paxil withdrawal will be a long one as well. Lets hope for the best.
#10
Posted 20 April 2017 - 04:24 PM
My mom used to say "believe you me" and as much that you are suffering, believe you me, you are not the only one. Surely In different ways, but suffering is suffering.
You have the guts to say it out loud though! Liz is another one with those guts. I refrain myself, except in pm. Most of the time!
Enjoy those sweet moments of freedom, like now. Well, you know the drill.
There is a sweet sweet soul inside this body that you call overweight. I know her, we all do, and I understand that's hard to live with. It's frustrating, I know, and when you die, will this matter??? To your kids?? To your husband?? Love you sweet Raven! Your soul is a good one,
And you deal with life with the capacities that were given to you, imperfect.
Well, know that we love and care for you Raven.
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#12
Posted 20 April 2017 - 10:08 PM
I am glad I decided to post this here.
I love you all.
Raven
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#13
Posted 23 April 2017 - 04:12 PM
#14
Posted 23 April 2017 - 04:42 PM
You know Raven, if I had it to do over again and found myself in your shoes I would take small doses of Paxil every now and then when you feel like you can't go on any more. By small dose I would say just a sliver off one of your tablets, say 2 or 3% of a full tablet. It may not completely make you relax but it should give some relief. The steady persistent withdrawal suffering is not good for your long term mental state and really taxes your strength as well as being a hardship for your family. I am not suggesting doing this every day but just when you feel like you can't go on any more.
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#15
Posted 23 April 2017 - 09:21 PM
Love,
Raven
#22
Posted 25 April 2017 - 09:41 AM
Raven my dear
I know you know i think you quit cold turkey that is why I ask could this be the last phase of the withdrawal?
Do you get the anger again in the end of the withdrawal?
This is so scary not knowing what is going to happen next just trying to help my brain a little and tell it it is almost over. (and myself.)
Just asking I know everyone is different. but just hoping and praying it is getting to the end of the withdrawal.
God bless us all and continue taking it hour by hour.
#23
Posted 25 April 2017 - 04:32 PM
Raven, Fishinghat,Gail
I have a question for you I am on my 14th week of being off cymbalta cold turkey and had anger in the begining and having it again is that normal? is it a good sign for me or am I just hoping to hard?
PRAYERS for you RAVEN !!!
Hello TMC,
Just saying hello as I have never experienced anger. Where is our friend FH today?
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#25
Posted 25 April 2017 - 09:32 PM
It could be more that you are at height of your withdrawal. Mine was bad at the beginning then tapered off, then can back in the middle and then near the end it was bad again also. The same thing with my Paxil withdrawal it has bumper up tremendously. I agree with FH on his thoughts on the matter.
Bless you and prayers be with you.
Raven
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