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#1 SarahT

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Posted 12 October 2009 - 04:37 PM

Well it has been 5 months and what a roller coster ride we have been on. I have thought of writing a book about it. Using different names but not sure it would be worth it.

Lately I find it hard not to be down hubby is no better and here I am trying so hard. I can not find a job and bills are starting to piile up. I feel like a looser and I am fighting for something that will never be.

I make a point to talk to him and due to the flipping meds he is on he doesn't remember anything I say. I worrie all the time about leaving him alone even if his dad is there. I just want to cry. "Why us? What did we do? If I only knew what was to happen then I would have done things different." But there is no changing it now.

There are some days I don't know if we will make it.

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Posted 12 October 2009 - 04:48 PM

HI Sarah,



((((((((((((((BIG HUG))))))))))))))))


Don't really know what else to say; can't think of anything that would help.


take care, Maureen.

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    I am reallly trying to get off Cymbalta, and not having, well I am having nightmares even with the decreased does, and clanging in my head.

    I just found this site, and I really need help, I can't do this, I fear I willl never get off this brutal medication.

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Posted 12 October 2009 - 06:28 PM

SarahT,
I am so sorry that all of this is having such an impact on you, and that your husband is not sounding
like he is doing better.

All I could think of when you were leaving your message was that if we all could just go back before
we took any of these meds, well I should just speak for myself.

I just know I have never been the same since I took my first AD, and scared that it will never let
me find my old "spunky self".

I only had something happen in my life that was very upsetting, and thus was thrown the med therapy,
and I wa not in a place to think clearly, or just walk through the feelings.

I am nott sayig the some don't need them, they do, anmd they help them, but for me it was the worst
thing I could have done.

The onething I have learned is to never give up!!! No matter how bad it , it always changes, and gets better
it just takes time. When your so miseravle it just seems so much longer.

Just hang in there, and come around more as we are here to support you

The sun will shine again.

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Posted 12 October 2009 - 06:43 PM

I know it is just so hard. The psycologist ask us if we could see the light at the end of the tunnel and we don't.

Every once in a great while I see this glimps of the man he was and then it is gone. I then feel worse because it is gone and then I miss the old him all the more.

I am here almost dail just never know what to post.

I don't remember if I told you all about the last time we saw the psyc dr. he was an ass.

I feel so lost most times between hubby and I it feels like we are roomates instead of hubby and wiffe. :(

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    I just found this site, and I really need help, I can't do this, I fear I willl never get off this brutal medication.

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Posted 12 October 2009 - 06:51 PM

SararT,
I know what you mean, we become in our own private hell, and no one can reach us, or do
anything to help. Mental Illness does affect the families so very hard. It'a just as bad as
acholism, or drug addiction, because they are just not themselves.

He will come back, it's all in finding the right doc. I know you have been to a few, but just
keep looking until you find one that hears what he is saying!!!

When your here, just write anything as at least your getting your feelings out, and getting
support.

Love,
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Posted 12 October 2009 - 11:23 PM

the only bad part is that the dr in the area eithor are not taking anyone new or waiting list

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Posted 12 October 2009 - 11:40 PM

the only bad part is that the dr in the area eithor are not taking anyone new or waiting list





How are you going with the social security department? Have you been able to sort out the fact that he did not leave of his own accord?


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Posted 13 October 2009 - 01:16 AM

maureen not yet I submitted a disagreement to their decision. and have yet to hear anything. And still gathering info for the lawyer for not only his job but for the dr.s neglagence.

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Posted 13 October 2009 - 03:02 AM

You know Sarah, writing about everything you and hubby have been through in the past few months (I can't believe it's been 5 months) would be very beneficial. If you got it published that would be wonderful - but it's more what it would do for you - rather than what you could do for others. By writing about your experiences, your feelings, how you were treated by Drs, etc, you can start to sort out how many separate issues there are/were, how you feel/felt about each one of them, how you think hubby has been changed and your fears that you may never get back the man you married, and so on. It's very cathartic. By that I mean that you get your feelings out and in the process, really start to deal with them. It also helps you to put the whole experience into perspective.

I encourage you to do it. For yourself.

I wrote a book about being an IVF patient. Haven't managed to find an agent yet, much less a publisher (it kind of fell of the radar in the past 12 months; too many other things to deal with) but it helped me a lot. So, if you want any tips on writing, I'm more than happy to help :)

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Posted 13 October 2009 - 06:46 AM

I just wish we would have just one thing how verry small go our way. it is not fair everyone around me has good things happening to them why not us. I just don't understan. Why

Sorry you guys don't need to sit and listen to me cry of sorts

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Posted 13 October 2009 - 07:13 AM

I feel compelled to post. Im here to support you too. Junior gives excellent advice. I think thats really a great idea. Things will get better Sarah. Recognize the good when you do see it. The sound of birds, the sky so blue. The smell of coffee in the morning. Many, many small things add up. Be kind to yourself and do something for YOU, when youre really down. Get a free video at the library, scratch together some homeade cookies. Luxuriate in a bath and DO WHATEVER A GAL NEEDS TO TO RELAX:)

Least of all pray, like youve never before gal, and talk to a Minister, go for a walk, a good strong walk and get some fresh air and sun on yer face.Sun and exercise are excellent pick me upos when your down and thats a fact. Volunteer if you can. Looking at someone elses misfortune makes us think less about our own, I think thats a natural tendency. Now, some of this may not be possible, but some must be. Use your imagination. Youre here and that must help, spill it gal. If you can get Individual counseling, thatd be good too. That book idea is a good one. A gentle hug, for a gal that needs one, hang tough SaraT, indeed the sun will shine for you again, and the stars,.......the moon, it all will, again! Mystic

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    I just found this site, and I really need help, I can't do this, I fear I willl never get off this brutal medication.

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Posted 13 October 2009 - 02:18 PM

Sarah,
I just wanted to share something with you as i feel it really was God working in my life.
I am on social security, and also get some other income. Well that all of a sudden was
in my mind not going to be coming in anymore, nor was I to get the $300.00 from the
girl who helps me with that other income.

She was, is a drug addict, and is my friend too, and went into the hospital for treatment.
I thought she just had kept my money, but no she had put it in her bank account, and I
will be getting it today. Also my daughter has agreed to go back with helping me with
that so I don't have to be involved with her, unless she is sober.

All this time I was praying, yet all this other stuff was causing me so much negative
thinking. All this time everything was being taken care of by God.

I am not a religious nut in any way, just spiritual. I love what Mystic said, and that's to
just pray, pray, pray. God does answer prayers. It is just us who get scared, and think
no one is out there to help us.

You have so much support here, and that's why I keep telling you to come, and just
write anything, it get's it out of your head, and onto the computer. If you have to
do this many times during the day the better, as we are all here for you.

You said that the doc's in your area are nottaking new pt's or even a waiting list. Is
there anyway you can just go further away so you guys can find a better one? i just
feel so angry my being a nurse, and hearing all that you and he have been through.
It is just so wrong, so is all that's happening to you as well.

Just know I am here for you whenever you need to talk,

Love,
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Posted 13 October 2009 - 04:15 PM

I have an idea!

Why don't we start a thread entitled, "Sarah's rants"?? That way Sarah can use it as a journal/ diary.. and we can chime in and add our support?

I impress myself sometimes =D

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Posted 13 October 2009 - 05:38 PM

That is sweet but you don't have to do that.

I can only take so much stress. And as of late everything makes it worse. It would be nice if one thing would go our way.

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Posted 14 October 2009 - 03:17 AM

Sarah

I would like YOU to have a thread for YOU. Somewhere to be able to just .. let it all go. We don't have to respond if you don't want us to.. but just.. or maybe you could open a Word document and do it that way?
As you say, a person can only handle so much stress. Dammit! I wish you lived in Australia. My job is about providing emergency or short-term respite options for the carers of people with mental illness. We can also link carers into other organisations if they need longer term support. I wish I could do something like that for you :-I

You just need to keep believing that it WILL get better. Ok, so we don't have a date or any signs of when that will be.. but it is there nonetheless. Meanwhile, you just keep putting one foot in front of the other and going forward. You will know where you are going when you get there!

Thinking of you
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Posted 14 October 2009 - 08:59 AM

Sarah, are either of you a mlitary veteran or the child of a military veteran? If so, Im familiar with some of the benefits offered. Hope today is better. Much of the advice I gave you came almost straight from my Pscychologists mouth.So, in a way I was trying to impart some good stuff hes offered to you, tho the way I am right now I need to heal myself.In order to do anything hun we must begin. Put one foot in front of the other. Ive been tryin since day before yesterday, and Ill get that sucker in front, but Im doin somethin, tryin and I think the key lies there. Hope so. hang tough still. Itll be alright. Mystic

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Posted 14 October 2009 - 12:24 PM

SarahT,
I have always been a big one for pusing people to write, write, write. I call it neurosis
on paper. It's beter to have it out of you head and on paper. Let all that'a in your head
just flow down your arm thru the pen, or if you typing and onto the paper or page, and
that way it get's it out of your head.

I started doing journaling years ago. My sister taught me, and I have never stopped.
I used to have over 25 boxes of them, and then just needed to let them go, it got
to heavy in my apartment(energy wise too)

You can do it here, we don't have to give you any input, unless you ask for it, it can
just be your safe place, that's all. It is just so important to do so. Also are you seeing
you own therapist? You need someone to talk to about all of this, about how it makes
you feel. I know that I would have feeling that I had that Iwould feel bad about having
and that way they could help me understand that.

Just keep haning close to us so we can support you, we are here for you!

Things will get better!!! It is just slow progress, but progress!

Love,
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Posted 14 October 2009 - 04:51 PM

No I don't see one of my own I can speak freely with the one my hubby sees and I do.

If I started writeing a story about all of this would you guys be willing to let me know what you think as I wrote it? I am afraid of it sounding stupid.

I have journaled even if it is just something small.

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Posted 14 October 2009 - 08:29 PM

Sarah

Your feelings, no matter irrational they may seem to you, are always valid and important. Sometimes we have a problem when people around us just want to give advice or solve our problem for us. They mean well but if they don't validate how we actually FEEL, then we can't move on. I've had that experience (long story) and the issue kept coming up because my friends just kept telling me what THEY thought and not actually LISTENING to and EMPATHISING with me. It is those latter two things that we want to do for you.

Don't be afraid. Put it down here. And if you really DO thing it's stupid and don't want us to see it, you can always edit it :-p

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PS - When I wrote my book, I drew on stuff I'd written, dated, and thrown into a couple of shoe boxes. As I went through it, I found I could separate what was pure emotion from the actual issue/s. It was an amazing experience.

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Posted 15 October 2009 - 07:40 PM

Well I have the jerk back again. He gets pissed off at the smallest things and he yells at the kids and I. I know it is the meds and all but it is just awefull. before this today and yesterday he was neutrial. it was as tough we were roomates. He doesn't talk to me muc any more and I am back to testing the waters.

I don't know what to do. After a bit he talks to me like nothing is wrong.

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Posted 15 October 2009 - 10:02 PM

It must be really hard feeling like you have to walk on eggshells. Do the kids understand what is going on?

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Posted 15 October 2009 - 10:32 PM

the 14 year old yes but the next two are autistic and the last two are under 6yrs so no they dont

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Posted 16 October 2009 - 12:07 AM

When my mother had depressive episodes (when I was in my teens) it was Dad and I who used to keep each other sane. I wonder if you and your daughter could form a similar relationship?

Sorry I wasn't there on MSN for you earlier..

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Posted 16 October 2009 - 01:23 AM

the 14 year old yes but the next two are autistic and the last two are under 6yrs so no they dont



Sarah, one teenager, or two autistic children, or two pre schoolers would be enough of a challenge for anyone. You've got all three and a partner who's in such a state it must almost be like having another small child anyway.

You sure have my admiration for holding it together. It might not feel like you are, but just reaching out to people here shows you're not ready to give up. (Like you have a choice!)

You'll look back and wonder how you were so strong!

kind regards, Maureen.

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Posted 16 October 2009 - 06:05 AM

the 14yr ooild is my stepson soi have those issues.I have raised him since I was 16.

he noiticed that he was wrong in the way he acted. and apologized. Things were bugging him and he did not tell me until he had so many that he erupted.

With how things have been it is just likehaving another child.
all of hi and kids paper work I have to do. I have to nag him about what he needs to do

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    I just found this site, and I really need help, I can't do this, I fear I willl never get off this brutal medication.

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Posted 16 October 2009 - 11:54 AM

Sarah,
OMG you poor thing. I am so glad that at least you talking about all of this.
No wonder you at you wits end!!! Mothering a child since you were 16! I do
know how that goes, as I had my daughter when I was 16, and I had not a clue
how to be a parent, let alone a child with problems.

I do know that there are services available to you in your community, and I sure
would look into finding those resources to help you with all that's going on. You
can't do all this alone, no one could. Reach out for help.

If you tell me where you live, I can help you look for those services in your area
online, and sent theem to you via here.

You really are strong, as are we all, but still everyone needs help, and with all you
have going on in your home, I think you could reallly use the outside help!!

It does sound like something is going on with your husband, and having to go
through all these withdrawls, and be on the new meds he's on it is not easy.
It is so very hard for the families to hacve to deal with it, and for kids to even
really grasp what's going on.

Well keep posting, and let me know if I can help you in anyway.

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Posted 16 October 2009 - 08:36 PM

Well at first he only was here every other weekend . by the tim he was 3 he was here full time. We were married when I was 18 hubby was 21. We have been married for 12 years almost 13.

Sometimes seems the more I can handle the more I am given. Lately a never ending cycle.

I am hopeing you all are right. And things get better. What I need right now is a job or the social security and unimployment to go through.

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    I just found this site, and I really need help, I can't do this, I fear I willl never get off this brutal medication.

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Posted 17 October 2009 - 02:34 PM

SarahT,
What usually happens is that one has to use up their unemployment first, or their doctor puts them
on Workman's Comp Benifits. I don't know why his doc didn't do this right off the bat, and I just now
thought of it. It is also another way to fight for his unemployment. As long as he has a doctor who had told to
to take off work because of all of this, they don't have a leg to stand on.


If he can't get unemployment, well I hope to God that you have already called the 1 800 7721213 number for
Social Security to ask for the paperwork to start a new claim. It will take some time to get on it, but the last day
that he worked will be counted as day one, and like myself my first check was for backpay, andit was over $25,000.00

Just don't give up! i too am in a fincial mess right now, been here before, but God has always come through to help me.
I have always paid all my bills, and things just always seem to work outjust fine. It is just staying in the now that we must
all try to do,, as today we have all our needs met. God will take care of all of us, and give us all we need.

What did you think about what I said, and your getting outside help???? You also qualify for Welfare at this time so look into
that as well. You would at least get money for the family, and medical coverage, also food samps.

Again if there is anything you can think of that you need just ask, and i will look in up for you, and give you the information.
Used to do this for a living, my nursing had me into all kinds of helping others.

Just keep me posted, ok.
Love,
Debbie

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Posted 17 October 2009 - 02:45 PM

We get food stamps and my two kids get ssi. My mom told me thatr the progeram I am on is the wrong one.

give me any info you can. We are in nekoosa , Wisaonsin

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    I just found this site, and I really need help, I can't do this, I fear I willl never get off this brutal medication.

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Posted 17 October 2009 - 03:40 PM

SaraT,
Yes you should be gettting Social Security for the two that have autism, and also Welfare for the other two.

Look at the paperwork that you get for the food stamps, and tell me what's on the paperwork.
What program does your mom think you should be on!!! For God's sake why would she just tell you
that, and not tll you which you should be on, how confusing is that crap. GRRRRR!!!! That is not
the kind of help you need at all, that just adds to your frustration, and confusion. I sure would have
said "Ok then what program should I be on them, mom"?

I will look on line for things in your area, I do know that your two boys are able to get intoa specail
daycare program during the day frre of charge to you, plus it will so very much help them, and you both!
They will be there for a few hours eachday, and that will give you time to collect your thoughts.

This is all so very wrong tht even you kids doc's have not told you about these programs!! How in the
heck can you work with all those kids, and having your husbadn in the state he is. Thenagain it just
might be what he needs to get his focus off all that he's going through, as just sitting around is not
healthly at all. This also would make him feel like he was at least helping out in someway, and not
making you carry this burden all yourself. If you don't start to take care of Sarah, there won't be anyone
there tot ake care of anyone. You have got to start putting you first, and find out what is is you need.

I bet you don't even know what that is anymore as you have had to met other needs for so long, that you
have gotten lost in the shuffel.

Always here for you.

Love,
Debbie



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