I am a lurker. I very rarely post on discussion forums. But this is different, in so many ways. You folks can help me.
I'm 51 years old, vigorous woman with a full, sometimes frenetic life. Childhood abuse survivor who held it all together for 30 years, real successful entrepreneur, leader, mentor. Just after 9/11, I lost Dad to cancer. Then after 4 IVF cycles, I got pregnant and miscarried at 5 months. The entire facade crumbled with disastrous consequences. After several bad bad years not to be discussed here, 5 diagnoses and a dozen med combinations, I finally "stabilized" 3 years ago.
Current diagnosis, bipolar 2 w/major depressive disorder and borderline tendencies. Meds, Cymbalta 30mg, Lamictal 200mg, plus 8mg loperamide.
Long-term Cymbalta symptom #1 -- colitis. Can't control bowels without loperamide. And boy does that add to the "major" in the depression scale. I have to obsess over what I can eat, trying to avoid every bit of fiber I can, so I can retain the meds long enough to absorb them. I have so many days of stomach/bowel/colon problems, I just don't want to eat. But this is now the only symptom I live with except...
#2 -- brain fog. Big problems with word retrieval. I'm an eloquent person, writer and teacher. I now can spend a full minute trying to find the right word I'm looking for to complete a thought. It's like a brain fog ... words, names, concepts i learned long ago, short-term memory seem to disappear for days at a time. I know that much of this can be attributed to aging, but it's more than that.
All the other symptoms are long gone, or at least they've become part of "normal" life. As a yoga teacher, I practice radical acceptance, and work hard.
But this just isn't the life I want any more. I want off the Cymbalta so I can relax, eat, think clearly, and find who I am without being propped up for so long. I can't stop the Lamictal, as it keeps me from rapid hypomanic cycling, and it has enough of an antidepressant effect, it may suffice. At last that's what my pdoc said last spring when I tried to taper down to 20mg. i didn't succeed that time, and went back up to 30mg.
So I'm trying again, determined to use all my skills and faculties, and share more than I normally do. I still have some of the 20mg Cymbalta capsules, so I moved from 30mg to 20mg on Sun 2/28. So far, I've got nausea and balance problems, and a few odd headaches. The GI symptoms persist, but they will until al Cym is out of my system, I desperately hope.
If you choose to, watch this space, and i'll try to keep posting what happens. I haven't seen anyone here withdraw after many years, so maybe this will help those who are considering it.
Hi b, quite a few here have withdrawn after several years. It's not an easy thing to do.
I've had ulcerative colitis for over 20 years, mostly under control. One of the reasons I didn't want to continue with Cymbalta after taking it for only a few months was slight flaring of UC. Having had serious flare ups over the years I can well understand the obsession with your GI tract!
Make sure you keep your potassium up, incidentally. I can chronically low (as in under the normal lowest level, not just low 'normal') potassium for 20 years due to another condition. Once that was solved three years ago, my UC has improved considerably.
I also had problems when coming off Cymbalta - one day constipated, next the opposite, but it slowly settled.
regards, Maureen.