Second: call your doctor or emergency or the Samaritans or someone.
Third: Yes, it could be the Cymbalta. I have a history of depression, BUT NOT OF SUICIDAL THOUGHTS and I sometimes have them now. And I also did withdrawing from Effexor. And sometimes I don't want to kill myself but I just want it all to be over. But I know THAT'S NOT ME. I'M HAVING THE THOUGHT THAT I WANT IT ALL TO BE OVER, BUT IT'S JUST A THOUGHT. IT'S A THOUGHT, NOTHING MORE. IT HAS NO POWER OVER ME. I'm getting a lot of help, even in this crazy time of withdrawal, from meditation and mindfulness based reading, practices and online support. Check out Get Out of Your Mind and Into Your Life (Acceptance and Commitment Therapy) or The Mindfulness Way Through Depression or The Happiness Trap (ACT therapy). There's an online community around ACT that I find really helpful. http://health.groups...for_the_Public/
I feel like I am being pulled toward just doing it. Anyone ever have this happen? you put the gun in your mouth and rub the trigger type feeling. I don't want to, but its like an compulsion?