I sat down with my bag of books, tried to read, felt like people were staring, sometimes people would get too close to me and I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin. I was a nervous wreck for 4 1/2 hours straight. YES, I bothered my boyfriend at work, while he was having a yucky day himself, because they ran over someones septic tank and cracked it. :x But me, you know, this all about me crap, continued to insult the people around me via text messaging. Their big boss was out there and he was having a terrible day, but Cymbalta does not care who it affects, it does not want to only affect the person who took the medication, it wants to destroy everyone.
Keep readin, I just want to inform you of my experience with our county Mental Health Agency. Humor me, if you will. I was called in by a woman, not sure of her title but in regards to her questions I told her that in my first marriage, my husband cheated on me, and that is something I never healed from, I am guessing, so with this Cymbalta withdrawal, it seems to have amplified my thoughts and feelings, and even though I need help getting past the withdrawals, I should talk to someone about my past which would be a great place to start. She informed me, they no longer offer therapy, talk therapy. They simply give you medication and send you on your way. I do wish the woman on the phone had told me that. It would have saved me from insulting people around me, that were crying out for help just like I was, but I was angry while I waited, maybe I was afraid of what they were going to do with me, and too, I was hurting inside because of bothering my boyfriend at work, when he himself was having a rough day. The 'woman' asked me if I was paranoid my boyfriend was going to cheat on me. I told her yes, in a sense, but not deep down. I really dont know how to explain it. I found out after the divorce about my first husband cheating on me, so I guess....well anyway, not important. She proceeded to tell me, that we as women have to learn to deal with men cheating, because thats what they do.......she also stated, "My husband has cheated on me twice, what am I to do?" I wanted to tell her that was her problem not mine, and knocking his head off was a good place to start, but I didnt. She asked me if I felt suicidal, I told her I have fleeting thoughts, but its something I cant do because it would hurt my family too much, and they dont deserve that. She told me I was a selfish woman for thinking that, but yet she understood because she has been SUICIDAL ALL WEEK!!! Its a woman thing, she claims. Here I sit looking for the Candid Camera camera. Am I really messed up in the head that much that I am now thinking all people are crazy??
She takes me back to see the doctor who tries to push me back on Cymbalta. Then he asked what would I do if I caught my boyfriend redhanded in the act of cheating. Well, I dont know, I am not in the state of mind to think about that rationally. Too, I still have this woman on my mind who has 3 empty cans of Redbull sitting on her desk and has not eaten for a few days, who is thinking of suicide and says we as woman have to accept the fact that our men cheat. I refused the Cymbalta, free or not. I told him all the medications that I have tried in the past that do not work with my body chemistry. He again said, that I did not give Cymbalta enough time to work. That I really need to give it more time. I have given Cymbalta 5 months of my life so far. NO THANK YOU!!! So he packs me a cute little bag of Symbyax. Smoking will more than likely interfere with the medication, I will gain an excessive amount of weightt, my blood sugar will probably rise and I will probably be confused more than normal, while taking this med. After I got home, I realized Symbyax is manufactured by Eli Lily......
Could it be Eli Lily is the Antichrist? I am back at square one. My boyfriends daughter has therapy today, and I will address this to her, to see if she has any ideas. She is an awesome therapist and does not just work with his daughter, she works with the family with family issues. I should feel worse this morning but I actually feel better. I read on here somewhere about benedryl, helping with the withdrawals and found some while looking for my cranberry pills.....yea on top of everything else, I think I just might have a UTI coming on, or either caught it in time. I bought the over the counter Cystex and cranberry juice so hopefully that will subside.
My question to you kind and patient people is this: Have any of you heard about or taken the Symbyax? The side effects have prevented me from taking it, so has the manufacturer. In regards to "me feeling better this morning'......I am not sure what to chalk it up to, except I took the benedryl yesterday after I got home, went to bed around 6:00 and slept til 5:00 this morning, but I am a firm believer in the power of prayer, and I see very clearly what this is doing to my boyfriend. With his job, his rough day yesterday, he is trying hard to start a new business with 2 of his coworkers, his daughter is out of control most days, either with me, at school or on the bus, and his girlfriend is physcho. He is hanging on by a thread. I can promise you this, he wont be bothered by me today.
