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[Lolita]

Hi all, im Lucy and im 20 ( just registered) and i just about have to say this is the best forum ive ever seen when it comes to Cymbalta information.

Its been 3 weeks coming up, im really glad i dont work or dont have college at the moment, as i dont think id be able to cope.

I live with my partner of 5 years, and on the first week of withdrawl for no apparent reason i decided i didnt love him anymore, i didnt want to be with him.. we sat down and discussed this but i had no valid reason what so ever for us splitting up. This kind of spurred him into looking at what i might be going through and well here i am.

So far its not been easy, ive been taking 90mg for 3 years and over the last year its been 60mg to just the 30mg. I was very depressed about my weight at that time and i remember specifically telling my psychologist then i wanted to loose weight, he reassured me id be find on Cymbalta and i stupidly believed him.
Since then ive gained a massive amount (about 2 stone, although i lost a stone), and through that a gall stone, although i cant say Cymbalta hasnt been a massive benefit to my life.

So after what happened 2 weeks ago, ive started having tearful/angry out bursts, electric shocks, brain zaps, throwing up and massive panick attacks in public ( i havent had one of those for 2 years) and insomnia. Ive spoken to my GP, shes told me theres nothing she can do and to go cold turkey, so i then saw another GP and he told me the same thing.

Ive been to the herbal store by us and ive bought stuff like omega 3, benadryl, and anti - oxidants. To be honest its my first day taking them so, s far i feel really tired but i cant sleep at all, and if i do i get really vivid, detailed nightmares.

Think ive gained some weight over these two weeks, even though i goto the gym three days a week and eat healthy/next to nothing. Its whats affecting me the most as i had just two stone to go and its upsetting me to see it slowly go back after my hard work.

Im angry i guess.. that i didnt get warned, the complete and utter negligence of doctors, to not even recommend a substitute drug or help.

Thanks for reading, sorry for drawling on sight and brain seem to be affected by this at the moment so it takes me longer.

[blueskye]

I have to echo Blake... and I think you did the best thing possible in the situation by sitting down with your partner and allowing him to help you and it sounds like he is a great dude and doesn't want to loose you... take huge comfort in that and don't be afraid to rely a lot on him and others that are close to you during this time. I know it is hard- I hate doing it, it's one of the reasons I started taking the drug to begin with... but it really is the best thing you can do... and yep,Blake you are right... at least for me and Chris it has brought us even closer-
as far as your weight gain- I hear ya chicka- I lost so much weight right before I went on cymbalta having just fallen madly giddily in love... the drug came later and I managed to hold steady after gaining a bit (thankfully I have one of those guys who kinda likes chunky women- which that's a whole other head trip when you're told all your life you have to be skinny and then bam the one person it really matters for likes ya however you come- took me a while to wrap my head around that one... ) and I bet your guy doesn't mind either... ... my guess would be that he wants you happy and healthy! in all honesty I would try to not worry too much about the weight while you are recovering (I know that it is hard to do that... I still can't let my weight go sometimes having thought i was heavy since i was little)... when you are feeling better and your energy is back where it should be and you are mentally happier- i have no doubt you can be whatever size you would like to... for now though- i would focus on getting your mind in a happier place and i know you can do it!
Keep your head up- and we are here for you!
HUGS
skye

[Lolita]

Thank you for all the support! I realise its the tablets talking and so is he, but most of the time its just too late to stop it.
Im a really weak person when it comes to being ill (had cancer when i was 4), i cant stand being in pain, so i am taking this really hard.. think its kind of a drain on him having me like this.

I am getting slightly better, although it seems ive moved from brain zaps to excessive tiredness and not being able to sleep or settle down ( think thats the benadryl), and seriously eating (im not biting though hehe, ).

Yeh i think with my weight its depressing, but soon as i get over my withdrawl weight ill be able to go full force and loose it again (can but hope anyway).

Again thank you for reading and your support, it means alot.. as family and support lines dont really understand.

All the best and good luck.

[blueskye]

Lolita.... just wanted to send ya a quick note of encouragement this morning ... I have been off the cymbalta for about a week and a half...(after tapering for a while) and I can tell you your energy will come back... I don't know when... but it will- just this morning i have felt like doing and done more than I have in weeks i too want to eat everything in sight... (and the happy donuts people can tell - they gave me extra donut holes this morning ) but I feel like the higher levels of energy will help burn some of the excess eating... I'm hoping to hop back on some projects I set aside long ago and maybe pick up my guitar again and see if i remember how to play anything... so there is a lot to look forward to I'm thrilled to hear that the zapps are lessening for you- that is good news indeed! Best wishes and Hugs
skye

[Lolita]

Update

Hi all, thanks for listening to my rambling, it really helps alot for me as im the type of person who likes to get things off my chest.

Ive tried some antioxidants, omega 3, benadryl ect.. and i can say i feel 90% better after 4 weeks or atleast since ive taken them.
Although im really grouchy and bad tempered right now.. just today i punched a wall till my knuckles bled over something so minor, i just cant control it.
Nearly pulling my hair out (literally) its not me at all to harm myself, im afraid because im getting more and more suicidal thoughts, just acts generally to harm myself although i havent got the nerve to do them.. two months ago i tried to wean and after three days id already managed to cut my arm up with a butter knife so im doing relatively well.. just afraid of smashing something or myself up at the moment.

Good luck, Lucy.

[blueskye]

Hey Lucy...
HUGS

I know it's kinda crazy to suddenly feel like you have to learn how to control your emotions all over again... It will get easier to manage in time, hang in there I'm glad the supplements are helping you some- do you have any hobbies that you sat aside when on cymbalta that you can pick up again to help channel the intense emotions? (I'm working on picking up my guitar and starting to write again, i find myself sketching more now -it's nice to be back to being creative-- things like that, and it really really helps)

Best wishes
skye

[Lolita]

Heya Skye, I am actually sketching again actually! its remarkable i just havent had the ability to sit down like before and its rushing to me.
Im taking lots of pictures and reading again.. i actually had an urge to buy a guitar so it might be something to look into.

Also, im getting the energy, its so fantastic to be able to clean and have the motive to do things.

Thanks for replying and best of luck.

Lucy x.