I m writing this in hope that this won t happen to anybody again!
Please stay away from this drug !
Nothing is now like it was before!!
And if u r on it, for long especially, reduce as careful and slow!!! as possible - find a doc u can trust and is aware about the withdrawal problems!
I know they can vary in leght an strenght extreme!
If anybody has been reading my older posts, u might know I have been suffering extreme !!!! From the withdrawal...
See more in I came, I saw when will I conquer..
Anyway things got so extreme I an t even describe it in words !!
I still have massive headaches , vision changes, massive cognitive problems, orientation problems, nausea, etc..
Sometimes better , sometimes worse ...
2 weeks ago it started as well with the paranoia and paranoid thoughts.. Like sby is watching me , or standing next to me, that sby could be behind the wall and shit like this! Extreme!!! On top I had massive confusion and kind of delusion that the wall or street loos different but I can t really tell so sometimes I am scared of things I be never been sated before like a car, etc... Which is followed be extreme anxiety attacks logically...
I swear I never!!!! Ever in my life had this before !!!!
It feels like my brain is so messed up from the withdrawal that nothing works like it works before ...
I m currently 4 months on 0 and was and still fighting a really hard time...!!!
Yesterday I my whole body even started shaking on it s own and I couldn't do anything.. I really felt I lost it now I felt like in a f*ckin delirium.
I directly went to my new doc- I trust.
And she told me it is a form of pre- psychosis ?!
Triggered by??? She doesn t know...
During the whole withdrawal I refused -"any medication to ease withdrawal symptoms!
And I can tell u I thought so often that I m dying of this...of the physical and emotional pain. !!
So she prescribed me a neuroleptic against these hardcore horror things.. And asked if I can go through this at home..
I was so weak yesterday that I said no and I went into the hospital to talk and see...
Now I can say I was "lucky" that I had such a "b*tch" of a doc there.
Man she stared at me like I am the craziest person on earth and I told her my story.. I felt like a freak in front of her.. An she Didn t even wanted to believe that I developed a deep depression while on cymbalta- which funny wise disappeared after cutting it
she was like yes , can t be because it it an ANTI- depressant !!! And I was like wtf read the paper in the box that it can worses or even trigger depression.. The situation got more crazy and she Didn t even want to believe that I had such a hard time withdrawing.. Wtf!!!!! ?!And she wanted to keep me there on a station with serious cases at least till a place is getting free on the one for younger ppl...
And I had a thought while she was talking to the other doc- she doesn t believe me and if I ll stay here now, I m sure I won t come out as fast. At least not normal..
So I told her that I don t trust her and that ahe makes me feel like i m the worst paycho and that I m leaving- haha- u should have seen her eyes !
So since yeaterday I started with the neuroleptic to ease the symptoms as I couldn't take it 1 min longer...
It will take a few days but I already feel an ease !
Anyone had a similar experience???
