Day 26 off
I'm running out of ideas for handling the anxiety and depression that I am experiencing.
I am beginning to feel like some do at this point - When is it going to end? Is it going to end? What if this is permanent?
I am so down today that I wish I could crawl in a hole and pull it in on myself.
I have had insomnia all my life but now I hardly sleep at all and am feeling totally worn out.
I have brain zaps and dizziness again, I ran out of omega3 last week. Hubbie will get some today. I hope that helps. God don't let him forget to get some.
I was supposed to go with him today, but he was in so much of a hurry that I started to get anxious so instead of letting me calm down he decided that he would just go by himself. I think that hurt more than I realized at the time. I spend too much time on my own and am unable to focus enough to actually accomplish anything and that makes me feel more depressed.
Feeling this way doesn't do me any good at all. But even though I can think of things that I could do, the thought "What's the point?" pops into my mind right away.
This is so dumb - I took Crapalta for pain. I wasn't depressed. In fact things were starting to look up for me as I had found a way to earn some money while doing something I love.
This is not fair and it certainly isn't right.
Life has been hard enough I didn't need this.