Ignorance is bliss. What a true statement. Did you know that you are eight times more likely to suffer depression if you are of above average intelligence? Sometimes I wish I were a Forrest Gump type. It must be an exhilarating feeling to not be burdened with the knowlege of how bad your life sucks. My life should be good but it isnt. I am relatively wealthy. Money really cant buy happiness. I sit around and try to remember what it was like to be happy. Cant do it. Dont get me wrong, I started out dirt poor and wouldnt want to try that again. I just dont get it why I cant find any joy in life. I know that this is a little off topic but these withdrawal pains are just making it necessary to vent i guess. I hope nobody minds too much. Talk to me if you feel like it. This site really is helping. Peace and love to all. MOK
Did you ever wish you were stupid
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Posted 18 August 2008 - 01:23 PM
Hi!
I am so glad to see your post bout the guns:) Smart move!
Yes, I wish I was a "gump" I think knowing too much can be the worst thing, to much thinking.. I wake up everyday so focused on this withdrawal crap, I am so tired of it I feel like I have OCD. obsessive cymbalta disorder! Glad to also see you are venting on here, that is what it is for, I am always checking in so keep us updated and post as often s you like!!!
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Jen
I am so glad to see your post bout the guns:) Smart move!
Yes, I wish I was a "gump" I think knowing too much can be the worst thing, to much thinking.. I wake up everyday so focused on this withdrawal crap, I am so tired of it I feel like I have OCD. obsessive cymbalta disorder! Glad to also see you are venting on here, that is what it is for, I am always checking in so keep us updated and post as often s you like!!!
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Posted 18 August 2008 - 01:32 PM
Thank you Jen, Yes this site has been a blessing. I have found that no matter how had you try to explain your symptoms, nobody really understands. I try to explain it to my wife. She is a good wife but something of a Pollyanna. You know the type. Everything will just be fine if you just look on the bright side. What people dont understand is that there is no bright side sometimes. I hope that someday there will be, but right now the only light at the end of the tunnel is a train coming at me full speed. Best wishes Jen and good luck. MOK
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Posted 18 August 2008 - 02:22 PM
I am having one of those days of obsessively thinking about my situation (speaking of worrying) , I am so mad and sad, I haven't left the house in 15 days and I feel guilty! I was mildly agoraphobic on the cymbalta and now it is worse than ever coming off. I feel paralyzed by this fear, and I don't even know what it is I am afraid of... Baby steps right?
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Posted 18 August 2008 - 04:58 PM
Hi everyone. My name is Bonnie. I've been off Cymbalta for almost a week...cold turkey. I ran out while out of state teaching and lecturing, and decided I really didn't want to deal with this anymore. I had tried to quit once before, but the withdrawal effects were worse than continually taking the drug. I have two weeks before I have to hit the road and be functional again. I'm taking this time to detox. Period.
I am a normal 46 year old woman. I have had a wonderful life, married for 27 years (next week) with two great sons ages 24 and 18. I consider myself to be highly artistic and intelligent, and I just published my first book that is due to be available in the next few weeks. It's a quilting book with my own patterns and designs and I'm thrilled about it.It's being published by Kansas City Star. I travel extensively in my job giving lectures and workshops to quilter's guilds all over the country. I love my life. I hate being dependent on cymbalta.
I'm also a licensed massage therapist, nationally certified in therapeutic massage and body work.
I hate that my hubby doesn't seem to think that the withdrawal symptoms are real, and I hate that he wishes I would still stay on the drug because I am less of a weepy basket case to deal with when I am medicated. When on Cymbalta.....(about 2 years now) I never cry. I don't get moody "that time of the month" and it is smooth sailing for anyone who has to live with me. So why quit? Because anything this HARD TO GET OFF OF can't be good for me in the first place!
I was fine for 2 days and then the flu-like symptoms hit. I was nauseous, I was dizzy, and I spent one afternoon and night throwing up. So ...I thought it had to be flu or something I ate. The next day I felt like my head was a jelly fish. I still feel that way. My stomach is always on the verge of queasy, you know the feeling you get when you keep thinking that if you just eat more saltine crackers that it will go away? But it doesn't. This is when I started searching online to find out if this was normal, or if it was connected to the discontinuation of the cymbalta. Low and behold...I found this site. Lordy. I had no idea that all these symptoms are from getting off of that drug! I'm glad to know it's temporary, but it scares me. I hope by the time my 2 weeks is up that I can function.
I'm napping every day. I took melatonin last night before bed and I had the first good night sleep in over a week (6 hours is the most I've had and I'll take it!) I'm trying to keep myself hydrated, drinking lots of water ( no diet drinks...no more false chemical sweeteners and no caffiene to interfere with detox) to help flush my system.
I'm okay if I'm just home. I get car sick if I drive anywhere. It's worse if someone else drives. My brain feels like it's on spin cycle.
I find I feel better if I can work on some of my new designs....let the thought process go in some positive direction. So I'm cutting up perfectly good fabric into little itty bitty pieces and sewing it all back together again. Ahhh...therapy :c)
I'm hoping the hot flashes (power surges?) go away. I was thinking I was too young for the onset of these, and now I'm not sure if they are cymbalta withdrawal related, or because I am reaching that stage of my life.
I don't have thoughts of suicide. I don't feel "oh woe is me". I feel like I can make it through this. I have so much to look forward to in my life in the next few months. I don't want to be fuzzy around the edges when I should be rejoicing in reaching my goals of being published. I have another design that is up for a cover shot for the Jan/Feb issue of Quiltmaker magazine. That is if I can get my head out of this funk to actually be able to finish the quilt so it can be sent to photography. This is where the brain funk is getting me. I don't like moving in slow mode. I'm more of an ADHD get it done driven person (I hyper focus)...I'm used to being motivated in the fast lane, and right now I feel like I need to hop a ride on the sag wagon.
I'm having another one of those sweaty power surges right now...time for another tall glass of ice water...I think I'll stick my head into the freezer while I'm at it. Anyone want to join me? If anyone wants to reply personally you can reach me at quiltville@gmail.com If you want to see what I do, my website is quiltville.com
Bonnie
I am a normal 46 year old woman. I have had a wonderful life, married for 27 years (next week) with two great sons ages 24 and 18. I consider myself to be highly artistic and intelligent, and I just published my first book that is due to be available in the next few weeks. It's a quilting book with my own patterns and designs and I'm thrilled about it.It's being published by Kansas City Star. I travel extensively in my job giving lectures and workshops to quilter's guilds all over the country. I love my life. I hate being dependent on cymbalta.
I'm also a licensed massage therapist, nationally certified in therapeutic massage and body work.
I hate that my hubby doesn't seem to think that the withdrawal symptoms are real, and I hate that he wishes I would still stay on the drug because I am less of a weepy basket case to deal with when I am medicated. When on Cymbalta.....(about 2 years now) I never cry. I don't get moody "that time of the month" and it is smooth sailing for anyone who has to live with me. So why quit? Because anything this HARD TO GET OFF OF can't be good for me in the first place!
I was fine for 2 days and then the flu-like symptoms hit. I was nauseous, I was dizzy, and I spent one afternoon and night throwing up. So ...I thought it had to be flu or something I ate. The next day I felt like my head was a jelly fish. I still feel that way. My stomach is always on the verge of queasy, you know the feeling you get when you keep thinking that if you just eat more saltine crackers that it will go away? But it doesn't. This is when I started searching online to find out if this was normal, or if it was connected to the discontinuation of the cymbalta. Low and behold...I found this site. Lordy. I had no idea that all these symptoms are from getting off of that drug! I'm glad to know it's temporary, but it scares me. I hope by the time my 2 weeks is up that I can function.
I'm napping every day. I took melatonin last night before bed and I had the first good night sleep in over a week (6 hours is the most I've had and I'll take it!) I'm trying to keep myself hydrated, drinking lots of water ( no diet drinks...no more false chemical sweeteners and no caffiene to interfere with detox) to help flush my system.
I'm okay if I'm just home. I get car sick if I drive anywhere. It's worse if someone else drives. My brain feels like it's on spin cycle.
I find I feel better if I can work on some of my new designs....let the thought process go in some positive direction. So I'm cutting up perfectly good fabric into little itty bitty pieces and sewing it all back together again. Ahhh...therapy :c)
I'm hoping the hot flashes (power surges?) go away. I was thinking I was too young for the onset of these, and now I'm not sure if they are cymbalta withdrawal related, or because I am reaching that stage of my life.
I don't have thoughts of suicide. I don't feel "oh woe is me". I feel like I can make it through this. I have so much to look forward to in my life in the next few months. I don't want to be fuzzy around the edges when I should be rejoicing in reaching my goals of being published. I have another design that is up for a cover shot for the Jan/Feb issue of Quiltmaker magazine. That is if I can get my head out of this funk to actually be able to finish the quilt so it can be sent to photography. This is where the brain funk is getting me. I don't like moving in slow mode. I'm more of an ADHD get it done driven person (I hyper focus)...I'm used to being motivated in the fast lane, and right now I feel like I need to hop a ride on the sag wagon.
I'm having another one of those sweaty power surges right now...time for another tall glass of ice water...I think I'll stick my head into the freezer while I'm at it. Anyone want to join me? If anyone wants to reply personally you can reach me at quiltville@gmail.com If you want to see what I do, my website is quiltville.com
Bonnie
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