Hi Nancy
I took 200mg in the morning in early withdrawal, now it's been 100mg, but have bumped it back up last few days.
I spoke to my dr, (well sort of snivelled down the phone to him!) and he knows me from years back, so he could tell I was not right by this. he agreed that counselling was a good idea, and seemed pleased with the self help measures I had tried before this. he didn't pressure me to try any more drugs, and will be assessed by our area's psychological service who provides this, later on this week. the breast pain (in both breasts this time luckily, no abcesses!) he also agreed sounded Crapalta connected, given also that they kind of exploded lol soon as I was on the drug. 'now you're off, the masking of the pain effect is no longer there, so you're going to feel uncomfortable as well'.
unfortunately we are having possible eviction issues here, so have spent whole day trying to sort this out as to where we will go if this happens, which has been worrying and not good timing! to cap it all, my godfather sent a letter practically accusing me of being lazy and that I should work from home. luckily I explained the reasons why not (I would lose my welfare/it would cheat the system/I am simply not up to it) and he apologised, but today has been horrendous!
I understand completely about your brother-in-law, hard enough to deal with that kind of loudness and vocality from a man at best of times, but immeasurably harder in the position you are in. it is a very vulnerable state to be in, and I completely get why dealing with people in general is hard.
animals are great for this, they sense it:) so many documented cases of animals saving their owners in this way, or sensing impending health problems. with your dizziness, it sounds troublesome indeed, take extra time getting up. I often forget if I get up to go to the bathroom at night, then I think 'damn!'
Ming, my rather obese white cat, has been great also. he usually has a bit of an attitude problem, but during the nightmares phase of withdrawal, he changed. one time he came and sniffed me, put his paw on my arm, and kept trying to get closer and closer.
with our men, it's so sad to know that they see changes in us, and wish we were back like we were. we try so hard to get back there, but sometimes I can sense him thinking 'I didn't sign up for this, where's the fun loving laid back woman I fell in love with'. but that's what love is, for better, for worse. not saying people should not try to help themselves, but unfortunately life has a habit of getting in the way and bad patches do happen.
yes in the quest to stop restlessness, this equals a LOT of soreness and exhaustion. kind of catch 22, pacing is difficult for us right now.
I hope you are feeling a little better