My reasons for wanting to get off are intricately binded to one another since there is not one specific answer for me. I have a new job that I can't keep up with physically because I am always tired and anxious about stepping out my front door. I was tired of waking up confused about what to do first: what do I wear, how long will it take me to put on my make-up and hair, etc and getting so frustrated that I wouldn't move at all. I would miss appointments due to this process that I went through every tie I needed to go out the door.
I was tired of feeling tired whenever I needed to be awake. Whenever I had nothing to do (like at night) I had all of the energy in the world. The second I had to step out, I would instantly become drowsy. It didn't feel like my body was my own and every day it became more and more unpredictable. My work suffered tremendously.
I needed to get better because I live in a house where I get little to no support on what I am dealing with and I needed to work so I could save up and get out on my own, but I couldn't be consistent with work because of the meds. I have no money, and I barely eat and since I can't work I sit in the house and starve some days and all because, again, I can't work!
I needed my brain back because my symptoms carried over into the office. I would sit at my desk confused for hours about what to do first. It made me anxious to do the littlest things and I would just sit and stare and not know what I was looking at. My boss would be giving me dictation and I would ask him repeatedly "wait, can you say that again." My clients would spell things out to me and I wouldn't hear what they were saying, and again I would ask them to repeat themselves. I had information I had to read and know and study, but I would get drowsy and was too tired to go over it. Even when I pushed through the drowsiness my brain wouldn't let me retain the information so I just stared.
I want to get off because I am ready to take the steps to regain my independence in life. I want to be successful at my job so I can move out and go back to school and finish my degrees. I tried, but I couldn't do it on cymbalta.
