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[michelleh38]

So today is day 3 and I feel wishy washy like someone zapped all the energy out of me. I have to go to the potty a lot (sorry) but instead of getting upset I am happy. This means my body is getting this stuff out of my body. I feel like I have a head cold, like my sinuses are clogged but at least my sense of smell has returned.

I started eating a baked potato every night. This is supposed to help the brain build its own serotonin. The first night I had some bad dreams but last night I slept well. For the first time it felt like a real sleep and not a drug induced stupor. My eyes and brain are not in sync with each other yet so I move my whole head as one unit. I walk slower and lift my feet a little higher so I don't trip.

My skin itches and I have a ringing in my ears. When I think it will drive me crazy I just remember that I am OK. I am among people at work who are here. I'll be ok. I try to think very positive thoughts. This also helps with building serotonin. I have a head ache but I took two Tylenol right a way.

I have some V8 juice to drink today along with some tea. I am eating some nuts which give me my Omegas. This is a great time for me to understand my body and work with it to get well. Whenever I think it would be better to go back on the stuff I remember that eventually I will have to do this again and who wants that!

I notice things look brighter and feel different. I guess because I can actually FEEL again. I have been looking at natural ways to help my body get me through this. When I feel anxiety I go for a walk or go talk with a co-worker. One was super and gave me some fat free cookies and gum thinking that would help me.

I do have fears of what tomorrow will bring. I have been reading all the posts and am afraid that something awlful is lurking around the corner. I think some times its easy to become complacent and go back to how things "seemed normal" but I am not interested in that kind of normal any more.