Hang in there lad!!! We're all in your corner!!! clara
Have To Make A Decision Very Soon..help
#33
Posted 19 December 2013 - 09:30 PM
So Lad, if I understand you right, your second month off Cymbalta is better than the first month? That's really
great news! Gives me much hope. I'm also having a lot of muscle pain. My legs just don't want to go and
sometimes a lot of back pain. Food is also getting stuck in my throat a lot, just doesn't wanna go down. I'm
glad to hear you are doing well. I hope each day continues to get better for you!
#34
Posted 20 December 2013 - 01:40 AM
Thanks all.
Yes Lundeliz, my second month has been better. Not a utopia of post crapalta bliss, but better. For me, the rage subsided but I have still been angry. Sleep deprivation from the infant? Possibly, but doubtfully the exclusive reason for the anger. The good news is that it is mostly manageable. The book I mentioned on another thread has helped in terms of trying to see the triggers for what they are. Out of my control and truly not important.
My back hurts almost constantly but I am still hopeful the spasms will subside. I will let you know if they do.
Lad
#35
Posted 28 December 2013 - 10:15 PM
Hey everyone. I've been reading around the forum. I really like and appreciate all the support and encouragement here. I'm almost
four weeks off now, actually 25 days. I have had some pretty bad days and a couple of pretty good days. Yesterday was a pretty good
day, mentally at least. I felt a little more like myself than I have in a while. But today has been a particularly bad day. I feel like my
blood pressure is really up, but I don't want to check it. It just scares me. I feel really weak most of the time. I really have to hang in
there though. Cymbalta had gotten so awful for me I don't think I could possible reinstate any amount. But every day that passes I
try to remember it's one day closer to the end of this mess. I see there are others who have been off for about the same amount of time
as me. I've been watching the progress. Lad, I saw that you are off about 9 weeks now and it's getting better? Really happy to hear
that. Let's all hold on, we will get there.
#36
Posted 28 December 2013 - 10:31 PM
yes. 9 weeks but have had a couple of bad days of anxiety the last two. Otherwise it has been getting better.
I can't imagine ever reinstating any amount after you've come this far either. If absolutely necessary, perhaps another, longer half life, drug. f/h would be the one to help there though if you need advice.
Stay strong, We're all in this together!
Lad
#37
Posted 29 December 2013 - 08:48 AM
Lundeliz, exercise helps. I went to the local YMCA yesterday for a swim and decided to follow it up with a sauna. With every bead of sweat, I said goodbye, garbage drug!
#38
Posted 29 December 2013 - 06:12 PM
a very last resort. Sorry you are having some anxiety, Lad. I had an anxious day yesterday. I'm
having sinus issues today. I think exercise would probably help, Akk. I just don't feel strong
enough yet, but I would like to at least start walking as soon as I can. I knew this was going to
be hard, and I thought I was prepared for it. But, wow, time seems to go so slowly when I just want
this to be over. Trying hard to be patient but not doing a very good job.
#39
Posted 30 December 2013 - 12:18 PM
I'm glad you are doing so well. "nothing unbearable" is great!
I am doing ok. I've been off 8 weeks now. The cymptoms are subsiding but honestly it is hard to say. A lot of pain that was being masked (and actually created by) the crapalta is quite severe. (muscle spasms/back pain I never had pre crapalta)
Otherwise, Travelling three flights across the globe to let very elderly grandparents/extended family meet our newborn and everything is just a blur at the moment....... come on new years! lol Finding 10 minutes alone to stop by here without dealing with aging issues/newborn issues and all of the issues in between is a task but I must remember it could be much worse! My first month off crapalta this would have been impossible! This "aint so bad" lol
Keep up the fight!
Lad
Lad I want to thank you for this!
I guess what I am trying to say is know how to recognize it for what it is if it rears its ugliness, but don't worry the symptoms into existence. (if that makes any sense?) That cannot be good for the blood pressure either.
That post really has helped me lots! About the symptoms and my B/P has been UP as well!
God Bless & keep up the fight!
#42
Posted 02 January 2014 - 10:33 PM
Here I am on day 30, and it seems the wd is just getting cranked up. I must be a slow metabolizer or something. Earlier this week
I had a couple of days of feeling really depressed. Today has been really bad with the anxiety, headache, zaps in my legs and just
a feeling of fear and hopelessness. I am just afraid it will get to be more than I can bear. How do you stay strong and resolved to
see this through? I really really want to hang in there and be free of this. It's so hard. I feel like I will fly all to pieces sometimes. You
all seem so strong.
#43
Posted 02 January 2014 - 11:19 PM
Lundeliz I am sorry to hear you are struggling so. The cold turkey is a rough road.
I wish I could find words that would soothe your headache, calm your anxiety, alleviate your fears, and inspire your spirit to new hope. All I can say is I have felt what you feel, and reading your post brings me back to those moments, and I can honestly say, "I feel your pain."
If I could reach through and lighten your burden by taking one or two of your symptoms away, I would. But I can't; nobody can. Know this: there is a large fraternity of Cymbalta sufferers in the middle of horrible withdrawal at this very moment.
I can only stand on this shore and implore you to keep swimming this way just a little longer. Soon your toes will touch the sandy beach, and your heart will ease.
#45
Posted 03 January 2014 - 04:11 PM
Lundeliz:
Others may seem strong to us but we are all just struggling day to day like you! You can make it! It is hell but you will find the inner strength. It does get better. Remember we talked about month 2 probably being better. You are almost there!
I still often wonder if I was a fool for doing this the ct way with all that is going on here but, like thismoment says, you just gotta keep swimming a little longer. We cannot remake decisions that got us here but we can keep strong for each other!
Lad
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#47
Posted 04 January 2014 - 02:19 AM
Hello again. During my withdrawal, the arrival of the tears was the most pivotal couple of days! Perhaps it's the same with you.
The tears came at the end of hope. For me, this was a very significant event: at first I resisted the tears- I fought them back! I resisted so hard I got cramps in my throat and a terrible headache.
But suddenly (and I don't know why) I stopped resisting- I gave up and let the tears flow. I just let go! And I wept in great sobs and heaves, and I slumped to the floor - the emotional floor - wet and exhausted. I lay emptied-out, my dignity hanging by a nerve- I had reached the edge of my universe. There was no other space to occupy. But within a minute or two I felt a rising, and the feeling of having been cleansed came over me - a sense of grace - laying there in a pool of tears on the hard floor.
Letting go opened a back door out of that bleak depression. And from that moment it slowly got better and better and better.
Lundeliz, that was my first glimpse of that distant ember through all that dark and cold that I know as hope! Let the tears flow. Don't resist it- embrace it, empty yourself out.
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#50
Posted 05 January 2014 - 03:09 AM
#54
Posted 10 January 2014 - 06:59 PM
I had a good day yesterday , but went to dinner with my husband last night & has 3 glasses of wine .
I can feel the effects today & my balance is very bad so I have learned a lesson , NO wine whilst suffering w/d .
I think I'm learning to live with some of the s/e but still can't be too active . I'm missing my gardening badly but we live on a slopping block & with my giddiness it's just not safe to risk it.
The last thing I need now would be a broken hip !. :-(
Thinking of you all & you're in my prayers. :-)))
#55
Posted 11 January 2014 - 01:35 AM
Yeah, I have hardly been able to handle alcohol since I started taking this nasty stuff. Since I started tapering off of it, the thought of alcohol makes me sick. I guess that's not necessarily a bad thing. I never thought I'd say I kind of want to want a drink! lol
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#56
Posted 13 January 2014 - 03:40 PM
Very proud of you! Doing your best is the best... A day at a time is what life is all about. Strength is what you have whether you have a little or a lot, either way, strength is there..Good Luck and prayers to you..Trying my best to take it a day at a time as I make it through. Thanks so much. ♥
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#57
Posted 20 January 2014 - 03:25 PM
night nor today. I feel on the verge of panic attacks. I took some Xanax this morning.
It helped, but didn't get me to sleep. I don't want to take it anymore. Also bad nausea.
The doctor had given me Zofran so I tried one today. It helped a lot. The sensations
that go through me are just so weird and so terrifying. I want to be strong and see
this through without getting dependent on any other meds. I want the end to really be the
end. How do you do it in the middle of the night when you are so filled with fear and panic?
I've got to gather all my strength and do this. Thanks for letting me whine and for being here.
#58
Posted 20 January 2014 - 03:43 PM
Lundeliz. I went through that for 3 months while the drs tried to find something to help. I tried every coping skill I know and had little success. The only thing I could sugget, if it is that bad just go back up 2 or 3 beads rill you stabilize then go back down.
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#60
Posted 20 January 2014 - 05:00 PM
Lundeliz.
Hopefully you can find a way to knock down the anxiety- it can have the effect of de-stabilizing the whole project. I understand you don't want to be on any medication at the end of this, but perhaps consider weaning off the anxiety meds last.
I know about waking up in the middle of the night with anxiety- it's the darkest hole in the universe! This is where The Dead of Night got it's name.
Is it possible to wake someone up to sit with you for the 15 minutes it takes for an Ativan (or similar) to work?
I wish I could do something to save you.
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