Hello dear new friends,
My name is Sytske and I was first put on AD (Lexamil) when I had moved from NL to SA. I was going through a rough patch and before I knew it I stood in the pharmacy with a script in hand. From that moment onwards I was labelled "depressed-can't-cope-without-popping-her-daily-pill".
From that moment I started to believe this lie. About a year ago I was put on Cymbalta because I did not feel quite myself on the ever increasing dose of Lexamil. Why I was put on a SNRI instead of trying another SSRI is a question I am only asking myself now.
On Cymbalta I developed an issue with alcohol, I started craving it and in higher dosages. I told my Psych about this, but he had neeeeeeeever heard of this. (Google it, it is all there...) I became quite agitated, like highly strung all the time while on it too.
Long story short, I wanted off pills and have my own brain back. Besides that I have a lovely job (although since I decided to stop Cym, all hell decided to break loose there), I have amazing friends, a good church etc. I even work out.
I tapered down but then got tired off the beads that hop around like millions of tiny ping-pong balls. So went off on Monday, 6 days ago. The worst symptom for me is the strange dizzyness. Like my eyes bouncing around when I move them. Even my own heart-beat can set it off. When is this gonna stop? I noticed that valoid is helping a little, and even small amounts of codeine. It is very frightening at times and I work with kids who never sit or stand still....
Other than that I have moments where I can't really stop my mind from negative thoughts. I feel teary as well but that is fine, I want to feel those things again.
Wow it is soooooooooo nice just to write this down. Whoever is gonna read and reply, thank you so much