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[deadbirddiary]

I've been taking out 5 beads every 2 days and right now I've taken out 25 beads of 150. I've been okay with anxiety. I've had anxious thoughts and feelings and I've been able to work through them. Today the depression came. I was never depressed before I started Cymbalta. I cut my finger doing the dishes and I was racked with sobs. I was so frustrated because I had burn my other hand a few days ago and now both my hands are hurt.

 

Then I thought about all the reasons I deserve to be sad. I'm fat and lazy. I can't keep my house clean. I have start back teaching tomorrow (which I love my job but of course it is stressful). Now that works start I'm going to be at my school for 12 hours every day and unable to take care of myself or my house.

 

Whenever I experience withdrawals that are depression related it goes back to "I deserve to be sad". I want to take better care of myself but I am too lazy to do anything. Please tell me someone can relate to this. Just so you know, I'm not suicidal in anyway. Tomorrow I might be fine but right now I'm really feeling the withdrawal symptoms. 

[gail]

DBD, hello and welcome again,

I have read your post, as many have, we will have to go through your first posts to know where you stand, get more info and get back to you soon, probably with more w questions.

Have to go, but stay near as someone will answer soon!

[Ramona80]

Hello DBD!

 

So your 30 mg capsule has 150 beads? And 5 beads = 1 mg, and you've been coming down 1 mg every 2 days? (Hoping I did that math right...I was just trying to see if I understood the rate you're weaning down.) Anyway, I wonder if that's too fast of a rate for you if you're already feeling this way! That's what I tend to think, based on what many others have written about on this board. I might consider slowing down your rate of taper if I were you.

 

I myself haven't experienced withdrawal-related depression, but I've experienced depression for sure (one of the reasons I was put on Cymbalta in the first place). And the feelings of worthlessness, and feeling really down on myself, and feeling like I don't deserve anything good. So I can relate you you on those feelings. I'm really sorry you've been feeling that way today. Sending you a virtual hug and hoping that these depressed feelings don't stick around! 

[fishinghat]

Don't fee; bad dbd. I went through horrible swings in anxiety and depression for several weeks. I would cry for 30 minutes to an hour and not even know why. Then I would get angry only to be followed by fear and then more crying. All a sign of reducing to fast. You really need a chance for your body to adjust as you go down. Stay where you are at until you feel more comfortable and then reduce slower. You can do this.

[FiveNotions]

I can totally related to everything you said, dbd !!

 

Being on this drug makes us fat, lazy, and apathetic ...

 

Getting off this drug makes us sick, scared, anxious, confused, sad ...

 

You're not alone in anything you're feeling ... we've all been there in one way or another, at one time or another.

 

Slow down on your bead removal ... stop removing beads until you feel stable again ... then start back up, and at a slower bead removal rate ... this is especially important since you're going back to work and will need to be able to cope with all that that entails ...

 

You will get off this drug, and you will be glad you did !

 

Please keep posting and let us know how you're doing, every day !