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[invalidusername]

Think this means we celebrate the mathematical constant m'dear!

 

But who's to know?

[fishinghat]

Just for your enjoyment IUN.

http://www.geom.uiuc...upe/digits.html

[invalidusername]

Like a work of art!

 

Thanks Hat

[KathyInFL]

I'm doing okay, no withdrawal, just some head buzzing now and then, this is my 4th week of work.

I am very negative and miserable otherwise.... Lol... What can I do to put myself in a better frame of mind? I do have a pdoc appt next Monday and I really think I need some meds... Is there anything I can do so I don't have to rely on a different anti-depressant?

[invalidusername]

"What can I do to put myself in a better frame of mind?"

 

Er, watch that 600# life thing on TV??

 

Why do you feel you need meds? 

[KathyInFL]

IUN, because I'm unhappy. Is that the same as depression? I don't get joy out of life anymore. 😒

[invalidusername]

I wouldn't let meds be your go-to response. Are there things in your life that are causing this upset? If we take medication to overcome issues that can be looked into, we might as well be taking weed! 

 

I'm not at all down-playing your situation as I of course feel for you. I just don't want to see you get hurt on more pills and go thru more s**t as a result.

[fishinghat]

Sorry to ask but how long you been off the Cymbalta right now?

[KathyInFL]

I've been completely off C since mid December.

[invalidusername]

I would say that a combination of all that time you had to yourself, coupled with being at mid-withdrawal (potentially), that this needs to be given a little more time before throwing pills at it... again. It does of course depend on how bad things are, and again don't want to play it down, there comes a point... but for me, if I ever get off psych meds, it will be a cold day in hell before I go near them again...

[KathyInFL]

I weaned off over 2 years. It's just that I had 2 job layoffs over that timeframe (not counting the 1 week trip to NM) and I think those 2 job losses did a number on my psyche... Is that a word?

[invalidusername]

Always the way that you get over one thing, and something else comes along.

 

Life is indeed like a box of chocolates... you never know what you are going to get

 

Psyche is indeed a word, and is used perfectly in this context

[fishinghat]

I agree with IUN. It would not surprise me if it takes you another 3 or 4 months to begin to see your old self start shining through. Just take it one day at a time.

[KathyInFL]

I'm headed to Sarasota to see an elderly (older than me and you Hat) aunt, then tomorrow evening will drive to Melbourne, FL to see the P-doc on Monday. I will check in before then. I don't know if my aunt has Wifi, but I'm guessing she does so I might talk to you all tonight.

[invalidusername]

Have a safe trip Kathy... hear from you soon!!

[TryinginFL]

Safe travels Kathy!

[fishinghat]

Safe trip Kathy and God bless for remembering her and taking the time to visit.

[KathyInFL]

I'm in Melbourne... My aunt is 92 years old, does 5k's and yoga. She didn't know her wifi password... Lol

[invalidusername]

I'm not surprised.. she doesn't have time for the 'net when she is marathon training

 

Bless her... what a gal!

[KathyInFL]

My sister from Maryland was visiting and she set her up with a Facebook account. I had to disable it for her because she was nervous getting friend requests. I changed her security so people couldn't find her, but she felt better with her account disabled.

My sister is on Facebook 24/7 so she's used to the site... Poor aunt wasn't.

[invalidusername]

You say Maryland and I just hear cookies

 

There are so many people always on their computers these days (he says checking how many posts he has written today!)

 

[KathyInFL]

How are Maryland and cookies related?

[invalidusername]

http://www.burtonsbi...rands/maryland/

 

[KathyInFL]

Yum okay!!! Now I'm hungry... But hey, I'm always hungry.

I have my p-doc appointment today. I'm going to be honest with her and tell her I still feel like crap... But I'm going to give myself 6 more months to get out of this funk and then go back to her then to see if I need any help. Maybe me even coming up with this plan means I'm getting better???

[invalidusername]

You wouldn't be thinking that unless you thought it possible.

 

Thing is our progress can go so slow sometimes, and whilst as annoying as that is, it is important to see the improvements as they arrive. We all want to be at the finish line right now, and when we always gauge our progress by always looking at the finish line, we only bring ourselves more pressure. This is why I do charts and work my mood out on a weekly/monthly basis because I try not to look at it day to day as there can be so much change in the space of even an hour.

 

When I cold turkey'd from Cymbalta back in October, my months were 40% good. Last month was 66%. Due to stomach issues, this month may be slightly less, but that's how the (maryland) cookie crumbles! But I am not looking for 100% - it is not possible - not in this life at least! I will be happy with 80% when I get there... Everyone has mediocre and bad days, and if they are 1 in 5, then I'd consider that a success...

[KathyInFL]

I'm out of likes for the day IUN, but if I wasn't, I'd like that post above!

[invalidusername]

No worries - thanks Kathy!

[KathyInFL]

I got home last night, visit to p-doc was good. I told her I'm giving myself 6 months more to get over this...    She asked if I need more xanax, I thought of you IUN! I told her NO!!

 

One negative... remember in March I lost my last employer health insurance, well the non-ACA compliant plan I bought does not cover mental health, so I had to pay for the visit with cash... see IUN, mental health coverage here in the US is not always covered either. 

[invalidusername]

Just been to collect my next batch of Diazepam (Valium), but only get them in 28's. Not sure how long they will last me at the moment!

 

Mental health is never covered with insurance over here. Some have an "add-on" but it is very expensive, but if you have a history of mental health, they won't touch you. Not a chance.

 

Glad your appointment went well though - well done.

[KathyInFL]

IUN, do you have to pay for your visits to the Mental Health providers that you are going to?