Update: Saw my psychologist tonight. Haven't seen her in awhile (forgot to make appt , no dates available until today etc) Anyhoo, as I Have only seen her 3x she did not realize that I was taken off my medication (first Effexor then cymbalta) by my doctor"cold turkey". When I mentioned that I went off with no taper she slapped her forehead and slid down in her chair and just sat like that for a moment (I love her, she is "real")! then she straightened up and made sure she had heard me right. And then proceeded to tell me how no patient is ever, ever supposed to go off these drugs cold turkey. She told me that she had just come back from a seminar by the drug companies and this was the overall warning that they were putting out. And then she listed all the side effects from doing this. (which I knew from doing my research and all you wonderful people here in this forum) but having it confirmed by her was great since all my other drs seem to think I am nuts for thinking there are withdrawal symptoms!
I told her about my last few days, the rage, the depression etc. and she offered a plan and a few tips to try and help me thru this. She said since I have been off the meds for at least a good 2 weeks now we would just continue. She agreed it was withdrawal and we would just try to work thru it and see how I am after a month or two. I might need some other medication when all is said and done or I might not. But she kept trying to assure me that "this" (what I am doing and feeling ) is not ME but the withdrawal and I have to keep telling myself this. She asked if she could talk to my husband about all this (he drove me) and I agreed. She mentioned aromatherapy, showers, headphones on with classical music in a darkened room for calm and that he cannot stop it if the rage or sobbing starts. I have to let it out and then retreat. Like FishingHat said, quiet and relaxed is the key. And sleep. Since I am allergic to numerous meds and have taken the Xanax, while it is not her drug of choice she told me to take it to sleep since lack of sleep with only make my symptoms worse.
End of long post except it was nice to finally have one professional agree with me. Oh and she told me that my research and forum use was wonderful and I seemed to have a pretty good grasp of the reasons this is happening. So therefore there were still some brain cells functioning, ha ha. (since I told her I felt so stupid sometimes!)
Thank you and PEACE to everyone and we will prevail eventually.