Hi all
I have been reading this site for a few weeks as I go through some uncomfortable withdrawls. I suddenly lost insurance and had to "cut back' on meds while I was waiting for Medi-Cal to approve. They finally have (45days later). I did as much bead counting as I could but honestly never counted anything. So some background first:
Back in 2003 I went off Paxil that I was taking for panic attacks. It did help me become a working human and for that I am thankful. Back then my doc just said. take one every other day, then every 3 days etc... then stop. Well, I had the brain zaps for about a year - they finally went away and I moved on.
Fast Forward to 2014 - I am now a raging alcoholic with suicidal drinking patterns. I was in a Psych hold for a few days while they put me on Lexapro and I went through my first mental health program. In the program the doc switched me to Cymbalta 90mg and I have been on that ever since and sober too.
Now as I have been taking less meds (due to a lack of health insurance for a spell) - I feel SO MUCH BETTER in the 'soul' area. I have found my soul again and actually want to go outside and actually want to play my guitar again (it's been a few years and I lived and breathed music for much of my life)
So here is where I am at today - I have brain zaps (so familiar, but I just grin and bear it and move slowly - I know they will pass eventually) Some belly aches and vertigo - honestly these I can deal with too! What I didn't expect was a few hours of total body tremors the other night - so bad that I went to ER and had to take a 60mg and in 2 hours they had passed.
I so desperately want my soul back - yet being ever so careful not to harm myself in the process. The last 60mg I took was at 11PM on the 18th. I have 2 60mg pills left and am waiting on my 30mgs in the mail. I'm struggling with taking these for a long taper. I'd like to do this quick but alas if the tremors come back, then I must taper.
Just wanted to say Hi! and thanks for being here.
