I have tried to write my story as *the briefest of histories* to post for 3 hours and it is just too difficult.
I have been a shell of my former self for 13 months. Battling depression last fall lead to 90 days Cymbalta 30 & then another 90 days Cymbalta @ 60, at which point I stopped *participating in life* at all, including keeping up with meds, self care, job, family, friends...August 5th I went CT from Cymbalta as well as Tramadol 50mg and Pseudoephedrine 30mg I was using just to stand up on work days. I have not had a medical visit since June due to medical insurance and financial issues ongoing.
By both occupational training & long term personal psych history, I should have known better but I didn’t put symptoms together with the med. I will chalk up the mistake of going cold turkey to apathy, detachment & distortion, both cognitive & sensory. The past 2 months off meds have been hellish and zombie-like & it was only @ the start of this week that I am making sense of the life-scape behind me. The only med I have reliably kept up with is my thyroid med (30+ years), as needed acetaminophen and diphenhydramine and occasional low dose Melatonin.
I have been reading info on this site for about 30 hours and it has all been a revelation:
I now have a plan & purchased samE online, will get back on Omega 3, vitamin C, hydration schedule, purchase Magnesium & B Complex & ride the rest of this out.
I can see a shoreline ahead, I’m just hoping the natives are friendly!
~ Don in a RowBoat