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#211 Mxpro32

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Posted 23 January 2020 - 12:28 AM

The stress response is crazy though. I had a customer upset about something minor, but my stress response was on par with getting sued or foreclosed on. Unbelievable. I'm getting better at seeing it for what it is though. Still takes forever for my body to come down from it. At least it didn't ruin my mood.

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Posted 23 January 2020 - 01:12 PM

FH and IUN does the stress response eventually settle down again to appropriate levels?

 

Mxpro I feel like your recovery is farther along than mine, but similar to you I feel like my physical response to even the slightest errant anxious thought is way overblown. Combined with the fact that it's been a pretty traumatic 3 months, even very small things like say knowing my husband won't be home when I get home, can get my heart rate going. I broke down a bit last night worrying if I will ever stop feeling so triggered by such trivial things. 


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Posted 23 January 2020 - 02:13 PM

Eventually yes. It has been my observation that after being off for 6 to 8 months the anxiety starts to drop significantly and fo the next 6 to 8 months after that you are very sensitive to stressful events.  That too fades away. This is an exercise in great patience.


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Posted 23 January 2020 - 02:46 PM

That's a long time for sure but it is a huge relief that it's not permanent


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Posted 23 January 2020 - 05:11 PM

Mxpro and Frog. I know exactly what you mean about the stress response and we have absolutely no control over it.

I am managing to go to work and try to sit with it in the hope that it will go soon🙏. My anxiety is manifesting itself as the shortness of breath so I am doing breathing exercises and meditation. I hope to God that it doesn't last 6-8 months

Mxpro- how far into the journey are you please? Are you off it completely?

Praying for us all to get through this quickly!

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Posted 23 January 2020 - 05:39 PM

I'm almost 4 months completely off

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Posted 23 January 2020 - 05:43 PM

Thanks for your reply. Mxpro.

Do you feel like things are getting better week by week? I have been completely off for nearly 9 weeks. My symptoms are random sweating and shortness of breath. My ears are also constantly blocked, which sometimes makes me feel off balance.

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Posted 23 January 2020 - 05:56 PM

During my withdrawal, I got stressed when a loud car when passed my flat... or when the door buzzer went... oh my! The stress tolerance was horrible. A year later and I can tolerate building noise, 10 hour work days and looking after a mentally ill wife.. but I have to be real careful. This is a lot for a "normal" person to take on. It only took a customer to threaten to take me to court and that tipped the balance and I have had some nasty moments this week - but then again, I have bee over doing it.

 

Remember that once we have have had stress intolerance, it never really disappears, it lays dormant until triggered. We always have to be on guard, but the longer you do it, the more natural it comes.


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Posted 23 January 2020 - 06:13 PM

Thanks for your reply. Mxpro.

Do you feel like things are getting better week by week? I have been completely off for nearly 9 weeks. My symptoms are random sweating and shortness of breath. My ears are also constantly blocked, which sometimes makes me feel off balance.

Oh, it’s definitely getting better.  My sleep has not improved at all yet unfortunately.  Still waking up with a shock 1-3 times a night without exception since about 3 weeks after totally being off.  I haven’t had a deep despair totally depressed day in a while.  Meditation, surrender, and acceptance seems to be helping that.  Stress response still hasn’t let me really help out in the shop much. Just being out there makes me really anxious.  Every email or phone call sets me off. Definitely improving though.


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Posted 24 January 2020 - 01:22 PM

I have been exercising daily for a few weeks now. I either jog for 20-30 minutes or ride my bike with trailer for 45 minutes to pick up my kids from school. Earlier in withdrawal exercise would wipe me out but lately it helps. My adrenaline was always high then. Yesterday, I had my first high adrenaline day in s while, and my bike ride wiped me out and made me depressed. Seems like a connection. The adrenaline days feel different than just anxious days.

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Posted 24 January 2020 - 01:30 PM

I've also noticed I'm constipated on the really depressed days

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Posted 24 January 2020 - 06:05 PM

Sounds like you are getting to grip with things - the more you can keep the status quo of the ordinary life, the sooner it will return.

 

I am still having the stress issues from the start of the week, but unfortunately I am not at a point where I can just down tools and take days off. There are still things left to be done, and I too am having the same issue for the first half of the day where if the phone goes, or the email comes in, it send a wave of stress through me. I feel that the next thing will be the one to push me over the edge, but I don't know what that would entail - I just know if won't be good. The only thing that springs to mind is me sitting in a padded cell in a straight jacket where my brain has just given up completely. It does worry me that one day it will just rebel and do just that!!


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Posted 24 January 2020 - 07:08 PM

Sounds like you are getting to grip with things - the more you can keep the status quo of the ordinary life, the sooner it will return.

I am still having the stress issues from the start of the week, but unfortunately I am not at a point where I can just down tools and take days off. There are still things left to be done, and I too am having the same issue for the first half of the day where if the phone goes, or the email comes in, it send a wave of stress through me. I feel that the next thing will be the one to push me over the edge, but I don't know what that would entail - I just know if won't be good. The only thing that springs to mind is me sitting in a padded cell in a straight jacket where my brain has just given up completely. It does worry me that one day it will just rebel and do just that!!


Lol. It does seem like it would be really bad, but realistically it would just be extremely uncomfortable. Is it just me, or does a padded room sound nice at times?

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Posted 24 January 2020 - 07:11 PM

The status quo of doing my job in the shop really gives me anxiety, so I haven't been working much. I have wondered if it is better to push through and keep my work routine trying to cope with the anxiety, or if the stress overload is counterproductive?

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Posted 24 January 2020 - 07:59 PM

That's what I thought - and that is when I overdid it....


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Posted 24 January 2020 - 08:14 PM

Ya, it kinda seems like the anxiety isn't conducive to healing

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Posted Yesterday, 09:23 AM

All good points. Be kind to yourself.





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