Hi everyone,
Just got back from seeing my psychiatrist today, told him I started weaning cymbalta mid-august (even though I knew he was against it)... He is happy I am doing well, and happy I finally was able to get rid of the remeron (which he was not the one who had prescribed it to me)...But he tells me this,
because I have no problem with cymbalta (no side effects ever)
because I suffered a severe major depression (that lasted about 3 years before I started to feel better)
Because they tried sooooo many different meds (which did not work at all)
Because I am now functionnal, working full time and able to deal with whatever comes my way...
He beleives I should be on cymbalta for the rest of my life, he thinks my depression is still there somewhere and the med is stabilizing it...
He knows about the very bad cymbalta withdrawal,
He knows I have been bead counting
He knows I can do it very gradually and will stop to stabilize the minute I have symptoms (I won't risk going back to that dark place again...)
Butstill he tells me that with all his experience, he cannot support my going off it and that I am doing it at my own risk...
For him the fact that I am well and able to function in society is gold because most of the patients that go through what I did never fully recover,.. MAYBE that is a sign of how stubborn I am and that I will win this fight
I can also see that he has a lot of experience and although he hooked me on this crap, He also saved me from a world of despair, deprssion and anxiety, I think that because of him I am able to take care of my girls and live life, I also think that the human body and brain cn heal itself, while he thinks my depression is like diabetes and I shall live with it forever...
with all this said, I will be extreamely careful, and extreamely aware of all symptoms, I will continue to wean But without putting my sanity in jeoperdy...if It gets too bad, I will stick with the med...but hopefully I won't have to.
to everyone xx