I am brand new here, my first post. Hear me, I have this theory that hit me today and I want to hear your opinions, and see what are your thoughts on this. I started Nutrisystem a bit more than 3 months ago. I lost so far 21 lbs/YAYYY!!!! At the same time, I am taking that Cymbalta thing, 20 mg 2x/day, plus seizure meds. (this was triggered by Wellbutrin XR).
Because Nutrisystem is a diet that has you eat lots of salads, fruits and the like I have had a major roller coaster in the last couple of weeks. Big downfall! I even took off, left my family didn't say where I was going; I went for a walk. I needed to re-program myself with regards to two issues that were affecting me at the time (minor today-one of those "forgive but won't forget" issues comes and goes). I felt unable to function, like I was really stuck. My brain felt even different, like a bit heavier and harder to process. I felt dumb. I don't work, but I feel that because all of this I have to apply for disability. I can't go back to work on what I used to do, because I can't remember jack and squat as an administrative assistant. Epilepsy meds. do that too.
I have tried over and over to quit Cymbalta, but you know that the two or three times I was given the regular "fast-track" wean process that I have read here. With two young kids and a husband that should be canonized by Rome (poor guy
) I am at my wit's end. I can't allow this situation to continue and eating healthy does work. I do jerk which goes along with the condition; I have had 2 seizures where I just pass out and I find myself on the floor wondering why in the world did that happen, and with the fear of losing the drivers' license-been there, done that.After three months it is very interesting that a total overhaul of my diet, with vitamins and supplements have somehow, someway made me go into withdrawal. Why is that? Is the medication not working? I mean, fruit in the morning, veggies at lunch and fruit and veggies in the evening, along with their food. As my nick, I became a "Twilight" fan which threw me back to my old reading habits and the "teenager thing". I want to feel loved, safe and protected. I am experiencing that, but not to a level that I am used to (another culture). It has taken me over two weeks to crawl out of this hellhole. My kids only got the "runaway mom" episode, which I shouldn't have. Problem is, I would not have been able to leave the house for two or three hours; my husband would not have let me go that easy.
Experienced again that dreadful suicidal tendency, but too chicken to do it. Nevertheless, I have a conscience so I know fully all the consequences. Now the thing is, I am craving lots of cheese; calcium but especially cheese. Cheese and oatmeal. If I have sugars late at night, it's a guaranteed headache in the morning. I do get a monthly or bi-monthly migraine that leaves me in bed, grabs my right eye and I end up with either Icy-Hot or Tiger Balm on my forehead and the back of my neck, and a bandanna wrapped tight on my head, and I cover my eyes to put pressure on the pain.
I have my appointment in a couple of weeks. I need to know exactly if I am accurate on this description, if anybody else here is on Nutrisystem would help big time. I need to tell him a possible new game plan. My husband disagrees with another attempt at doing this; he thinks I should go back to 60 mg because of this past downfall, leaving and more than two weeks of having a different personality-very guarded with him. Lack of trust, negative thoughts, weird dreams. I can't remember anything else to add, except that it looks like a withdrawal process. Because Nutrisystem does not provide seafood in their diet due to allergies (only tuna salad), I take Omega 3-6-9, sublingual B-12, B complex, vitamin C chewable, multi-vitamin that was recommended to me by GNC for the diet; because of where I live I barely get sun-I take Vitamin D-3 and it does a good job! For hair, skin and nails, Biotin (the diet messes up with those) and barley caps.
The problem of the office I go to, there's been two changes in psych's so now I am gonna see a new one. This doctor will look at my Bart Simpson-type folder, read the last couple of notes and I have to start from scratch. I absolutely dread that and hate it!
One ex-employee that I know of-used to work with my mother-in-law, had serious personal problems; was prescribed antidepressants, and ended up with having seizures. He overcame his obstacles, weaned off his antidepressant, and then from his seizure meds. He told me he gets a bit scared if his hand twitches, but thank goodness, he is still good and lost a TON of weight. He said he changed his eating habits. See why I am wondering that Cymbalta is not working right? Even this morning I thought I was taking duds!
I will cross-post here to other threads and see where I get to be seen. Thanks and sorry for the craziness, but I think I am onto something here.
