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[iammiserable2014]

Hey guys. : ) Thanks Liz I am too, I hope I can do it. Thanks for all your help and advice that helped me make my decision.


Hey Gail, thanks for your understanding words. It really is so confusing.

Ok, that's what I think too, I mean if I made it through those first nine days, which were hell...I figure I can probably just tough it out and keep going.
Ya, my heart tells me to continue on ct, even if it's hard, because I just really want this stuff out of my life so bad and to hopefully get past this someday. It's a pretty scary road, but those of us that have experienced any type of severe depression definitely are no strangers to scary dark times.

I truly appreciate you giving your opinion, it helps a lot. Yes Liz has been amazing, she is so kind. I honestly don't know what I would have done if I hadn't found you guys. There is absolutely no one that gets this unless they've been through it (which I don't know anyone that has right now) so it's very helpful to have people to talk with and get feedback from.

Well, tomorrow morning I'm going back to ct, I think I can do this, I'm a pretty strong person so...I'll keep you guys posted

Oh brz thanks for your thoughts also, I will definitely consider them if I decide to reinstate.

[iammiserable2014]

Hello tap...wow, I'm glad you can relate. It's such a lonely isolating thing to go through isn't it?

Yes the anger and rage is out of control. Today I felt like throwing glass plates and cups at the wall (I didn't do it)....it probably sounds funny I know, but it didn't feel very funny- I felt like a raging maniac that was just so frustrated! Oh ya, I can't be around hardly anyone because I just snap and feel like the meanest person in the world.

So I mostly have been spending a lot of time alone, in bed, I just feel too horrible to do anything else.
Omg the headaches are hands down, the worst headaches I've ever had in my life! Also, emotions are all over the place.
Pretty much every day at least twice, sometimes more, I just burst into tears out of nowhere and can't stop for a little while..

I try to hold it back but it doesn't work. Ya, I remember last wk. each day I would think, ok today I'm gonna feel a
tiny bit better, but it was always the opposite- just more new withdrawal symptoms to go through.

Well, I actually decided to continue on cold turkey, since it has been out of my body for 9 days now, I just want to push on and just keep going.....I think I can do it.

Ya this forum literally feels like a lifesaver. I agree, it's so difficult to ask for help and everyone here has made it so much easier.
Oh I for sure felt like a crazy lunatic woman earlier! That's why I kept posting so much, I just wanted someone to talk normally to me and make me feel like I wasn't crazy, which Liz did a great job of- she was incredibly helpful to me!

So, after reading so much and having everyone tell me they know how I'm feeling, I feel a bit less crazy. : ) for right now at least..

Oh gosh that's good about the Benadryl. I took a small part of a pain pill earlier this evening, and it did help me relax quite a bit..made me real sleepy but that's ok, I'll take any small relief I can get. And maybe I'll get lucky and it will help me sleep tonight.

Ok I've rambled long enough now....good luck to you

[TryinginFL]

tap,

 

Just a word about the headache thing - I had the headache from hell for 2 solid weeks!  It was so bad that I would wake up crying...

 

Trust me, it doesn't go on forever, even thought it seems like it.  You will be OK - if you have any pain killer, take it!

 

I hope that you are over that symptom soon.  I only had one or two experiences with the rage - mine was more of the crying.  I can't remember how long that lasted, but  it was horrible and there is nothing you can do but go with it.  I thought that I was going to die several times.

 

I am still extremely sensitive and cry easily - whether happy or sad and cannot watch those ads on TV for the Humane Society or  I will be sobbing

 

I wish you and iam the best and hope that you will continue to come here to let us know how you are feeling.  You might also like to check out the forum on "Nutritional Support" that you will find on our home page.

 

We will do all we can to help you!   I'm so happy that you have each other since you are in the same place right now!

 

Liz

[Clara]

Hang in there iammiserable! Yes, your age is def' on your side! Us older peeps have a much harder time with the w/ds! You newer surferers, just try to roll with all the emotions! Crying, rage, anger, it's all a part of the w/d process. Yep, it sucks big time but we have been there and made it through and y'all can too! Love, hugs and prayers!

[flyingsolo]

I have been on Cymbalta for 3 weeks. I am going to stop but wonder it I will have all the bad side effects

[TryinginFL]

Welcome flyingsolo!  We're happy that you found us - a bunch of caring, supportive people who are/were also on this hellish trip!

 

If you are young, and since you have been on this poison for such a short time, I would suggest that you just stop taking it.  Yes, it has had time to build up in your system, but it is not the same as some of us who have been on this crap for years.  You will feel withdrawal symptoms, no doubt about that, but they should not continue for terribly long.

 

If this becomes unbearable, you can use the bead counting method, but I really don't feel that you will need to.

 

Please keep us posted - we want to help!

 

Liz

[flyingsolo]

Thanks Liz! I didn't take it yesterday and felt great but I knew it might be temporary. I hated the side effects taking it. I found myself not wanting to live. I had never taken antidepressants before. People kept saying give it time but I couldn't live like that and I sure was fearful of the withdrawal effects. I feel better now about it.

Thanks again
Michael

[iammiserable2014]

Hey Clara....thanks for the encouragement, I'm trying my best...didn't take it today...not feeling great of course..
But not nearly as bad as yesterday so that's good.

Thats good to hear though about the age though...not that it won't be really hard, but anything that
makes it even a tiny bit easier.

I know it will be rough...ya having all these emotions at once is such a nightmare but I guess it helps knowing
you all made it through it.

[Clara]

flyingsolo, welcome and I pray that your short stint on Cymbalta will make it easier for you during the w/d period! Keep us posted! We're here for you all the way!