Dear fellow Crapalta-OFF sufferers 
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I just want to say THANK YOU for being here, for starting this forum, for sharing, and for listening...oh, correction, for Reading all this... 
Rant?CRAP?Horror stories?Blah-blah-blah?Nonsense-going-through-pain-trying-to-cope... Am I right to say, that we have in common the PAIN and the WE WANT OUR LIVES BACK before the painkillers?... I just want to say, that I appreciate VERY MUCH having this forum here to say the embarrassing, silly and frightful things about what I go through on the way to my, hopefully semi-normal-SELF 
This forum helps me keep track of what is going on in my life, while I try to get off Cympalta...Yes, I lose track, I still forget so much, that it is scary...
So... today is the 11th day since I started counting-off the beads. And since I posted in the wrong place at that time, I am re-posting it here again for my own record:
Today is the 7th day... I continue with the 10-beads-less approach...
Trying to concentrate on what I wanted to say: Oh, yes...symptoms...
I am not sure if these symptoms are before or after me trying to get off Cymbalta, it felt all "kind of natural to me", so I will try to list them in no particular order:
- Difficulties with memory: forgetful, sometimes not even remembering doing something on purpose so I don't forget it; (packed an item in my suitcase, so it does not brake; came home, couldn't find it it my luggage at first, started wondering if I took it with me... there was no memory of doing any of the packing and where I put it...); no sense of direction, getting lost despite the GPS in the car, on my phone and the printed directions...
- Difficulties concentrating: can't do even simple math: (5+8=?...), then feeling agitated and annoyed, forced to use the calculator all the time
- Feeling flat: not happy, not sad...actually I'd say feeling NO emotions whatsoever...The ONLY benefit of having NO feeling was, that I lost suddenly my best friend to cancer and I felt so numb, I hardly cried, just moved like in a dream, zombie-d out; still very hard to comprehend her loss:( ... I used to be the "social butterfly", now I'd rather hug my cat (if I he let's me:wacko: ) and read in bed; sometimes I don't go out from the house because I don't feel like going out in the cold (really, really hate winter, looking forward soooo much to temperatures above 15 degrees C= 59F )
- Challenges with my balance: I keep bumping onto corners, the door frame; my legs barely have a week without a new bruise from hitting something on the way...
- I feel dizzy almost permanently, especially when I look into far left or right, when I move up, get up or turn around; I've had issues with my balance before including having severe vertigo for a week: kept on spinning and spinning, having moving images with closed eyes, feeling like being hangover...
- Hot flashes all the time: almost every half an hour; last 2-3 minutes with sweating, sometimes with anxiety (feeling like going mad for 2-3 seconds); doctor said hot flashes might last from a month to a few years with pre-and-menopause... I am one of the "lucky" less than 0.01% ones to have them for longer than 5 years... waking up during the night 3-4-5 times, sometimes bathed in sweat, then start shivering; and then can't fall asleep for hours... So the doctor prescribed herbal medications: red clover, black cohosh, etc...
- It reaches a point that I take so many pills, that I feel like the pharmacy around the corner; my son laughed when he saw my emergency twist-on box, said I looked like a dealer:rolleyes:...But since I get migraines, I always have Advil in it; I have aspirin, Cymbalta, some Valeriana, and Benadril; just in case...
So, again, on the 11th day I could add more symptoms (I have been feeling like that for awhile already):
- Feeling thirsty, dry mouth (I drink a lot of water (avg 1l throughout the day and the night) and other liquids (I love beer, so I have to make myself stop at the 2nd; that is becoming another scary thought, my alcohol consumption...)
- Nightmares... I also experience a continuation of the dreams. I've always dreamed in colours, but now the dreams are becoming like the "Zombieland"
- Sometimes I experience flashes when I close my eyes for a second or two.
- Trouble sleeping: wake up almost every hour during the night because of the hot-cold sweating; often can't fall back to sleep, toss and turn in bed for 2-3 hours in the middle of the night.
- Still feeling foggy, groggy, slow, especially in the morning.
- My pain in my tailbone start to come back slowly; I feel it now about 20-30% of the time within the 24hrs period
- And what the heck is with that shower-thing?...I have to make myself to shower...Why is that?
But today I feel better (compared to yesterday . I even shoveled the snow this morning and ENJOYED IT!!! Well, it was a fluffy snow, not a big deal but I got out, and I cleared the sidewalk and the driveway, Yey!
Yesterday I started taking Omega 3 (500mg, 3x daily); not feeling so dizzy this morning. If I could motivate myself to do my yoga today, I will count it as a good day!
Thank you again for your support!
You ALSO take care of yourselves!
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