27F here. I've been on Cymbalta (20mg) I guess for about a year now but I was on other SNRIs (Pristiq and Effexor) starting around 5 years ago. I switched from Venlafaxine to Desvenlafacine to Cymbalta because I had high blood pressure on SNRIs and me and my dr were thinking newer drug= less side effects. I'm just on lisinopril now to deal with the bp.
I got my tonsils out and didn't take Cymbalta for like 3 days cold turkey and my withdrawl symptoms were BAD... cold sweats, insomnia, night terrors.
That freaked me out. I had heard that stopping cold turkey was bad but I'd never experienced withdrawal symptoms like that before.
So here's the thing... I really like how Cymbalta makes me feel but I swear to god it's turning me into an alcoholic. I get terrible cravings for alcohol every night. And once I have one I drink 3-4 more. I never used to drink like this. And I feel so good when I do it.. so outgoing, so friendly.. Actually, cymbalta in general makes me feel incredibly outgoing and friendly. I wasn't that way before, I considered myself very socially awkward and introverted. I like being this friendly- it's done wonders for my career which is largely networking. However, I don't want to be on the C forever and I'm worried about these alcohol cravings. I know C and alcohol are really bad together and can cause liver damage.
Also, I like that C helps with my anxiety so I'm worried about stopping it. Oh, another thing, after C and alcohol I get SO DEPRESSED the next day. Like, I really can't cope with my depression the following day.
Also slightly unrelated, C makes me think about suicide A LOT. Every day. Not like, planning suicide, just thoughts about suicide. Like oh, that would be an interesting way to kill myself, or like, imagine if I killed myself that way. It's strange, I don't ACTUALLY want to kill myself, but I think about it all the time.
I really don't know if I should stop the C. I like how outgoing and friendly I am. I hate the high bp. I hate the alcohol cravings. My brain feels foggy but I don't know if that's the C. It always feels foggy.
My heart beats soo fast on C. Sometimes I lay in bed listening to my heart beat and it gives me anxiety.
But I do like the rush.
I know you guys can't make decisions for me, but what do you think?
Thanks <3 I hope everyone has a great day.