Hello TryinginFL, I am so sorry that you are having such trouble, especially after doing so well.I know we get our hopes up when we start feeling better, especially when it seems we are on the upside of the rollercoaster. But keep in mind the down side will go away. When we are in a good day, we can see this a little easier, but in the middle of the storm it seems like it will never end. I know some days I have trouble processing things than others. For instance, I am a mother of 4 and can multitask with the best of them. But on a bad day, I can't focus and definately cannot multitask which adds to my irritability. I have been praying alot, and I have felt God relieve a lot of the stress and symptoms. But keep in mind, God can use our turmoils to help not just us, but others around us. have you tried some of the vitamins they have mentioned in the health section? I am using omega3 and vitamin B12, plus some others and it has helped some. After reading some of these posts, I was thinking about what might help us on our bad days. because onour bad days, we can't reason the same as we do when everything is working right. here's an idea I am gonna try, maybe you would like it too. Take a small photo album and label it Strength, Reason to Love, Brightness, whatever you like. and put some pics in it that make you smile, pics of people you love, places you've been or are planning/wanting to go, scripture that lifts your spirit or gives you hope, encouragement, reasons why you want/know you can get thru this. Do this on one (or more) of your good days. Then, when your bad days come open it and look thru it to help you brain reset to the positive. I don't know how well this will work, but I am gonna give it a try. :-) Being able to come to this forum has been amazingly awesome. We are all praying for you and It is really helpful to get to vent.
LuckyPenny, I am so glad you found this forum. the people here are awesome and it is so nice to have others who understand. I am just starting week 4. And I have good days and bad days. Try to find a way to help yourself on the bad days. OUr brains function differently on those days, and you're right...you can't trust your thoughts. I am going to try the photo album idea I mentioned above. I think the pics will work great too because on the bad days, I hurt so much and have no patience for reading and usually my head and eyes hurt and I can't read or focus anywhay. I find the ice pack on the back of the neck and cold rags on my eyes help. Please take the suicidal thoughts seriously as on a bad day, the intensity of your feelings,thoughts,emotions can overwhelm you and make suicide seem like a reasonable option...IT IS NOT. Please write some of the reasons why you have to live down , on a good day, and keep them close to read on a bad one. Keep someone's number who you can trust with your feelings, and let them know that although you are not normally suicidal, the withdrawal makes you ponder it and you may need to call them the next time this happens. It will get better, Lucky. If you are feeling it is too much, I would def ask your physician for some help, but I would be sure to tell him you want something short term to help you with the withdrawal. God made each of us special. Each with our own gifts, our own personalities and He loves us all. Ask Him to help you through this and that He can use your "storm" in a way to help others. I feel ya with the weight. I thought I would at least have the benefit of loosing weight once I was off cymbalta...not happnin'. :-)
How to get my message to her across re: rx'g this med.--thinking long about the benefit /risks...YIKES!
