Posted 22 November 2017 - 03:36 AM
Hello Garden Lady,
You are at the right place for sure.and you're not alone. I we only knew the number of people all around the Earth that feel that way. It makes me sad. Loneliness and fear about what's to come next, how to manage to do simplest things that require so much courage specially when you are alone. Lucky me, I have 3 wonderful men in my life to support and help me. Deep down, I feel alone just the same at times, the thing is that they are not God and nobody can fill this gap!
Garden Lady, I'm also tapering the Valium! In the last weeks, I have been holding still. Too many things are wrong at the moment concerning my health.I don't want to add oil to the fire.
I'm up since midnight, the back pain is excruciating. It took a while to figure out how to manage that pain. I go into a kind of panic mode when this happens, it reminds me of the pain I had before the surgery. The oncologist thinks that the disease is coming back, just a possibility.
Friday is an emergency Scan. Something is going on inside my body. My suitcase is ready if it comes to that. This is only the fourth day of extreme pain and prior to this, I had a six day long night fever. Yes, I'm tired. As for the fever, many blood tests were made to find out where infection was located. To no avail. 50% of the time, they can't find out.
Rambling on and on. You have given me the chance to do this by writing your post, so thank you Garden Lady! As you see, you are not alone in all this. With love, Gail