'Hat - in need of your thoughts if you would be so kind.
Today I started to recognise the feeling I was getting since the start of the week. It was EXACTLY what I was feeling in August 2017 when I was starting up the Citalopram again after cold turkeying. Dread following me 24/7, cannot bring myself to eat, burning on the chest bone - sounds default for depression, but I know this combination well enough. I felt this for about 6-8 weeks from the point I started the 30mg Citalopram (having then been off it for 10 weeks).
What concerns me is that I have been back on Citalopram for 8 weeks (2 weeks 10mg, 2 weeks 20mg, 4 weeks 30mg), and I have just got worse. I acknowledge that I did the Duloxetine 10mg to zero over a week, and now 5 days with nothing, but I simply worry that the Citalopram is not going to pull me through this, noting that I relapsed over 15 months ago, and got not better whilst on the Citalopram...
I saw the medical team today and explained all this, and they have told me to just carry on for another 6-8 weeks before they consider any medication - either additional, or changing.
I can go back to my GP and he will listen, but I would like some advice on whether these first few days of zero can be THAT bad, regardless of a second SSRI? Or just to know how long I can expect this heightened level of psychological problems? And whether there is a point whereby I need to throw the towel in with the Celexa?