Bead Counting Tapering - New To Me So All Advice Welcome!
#331 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 22 May 2019 - 05:57 PM
Anyways, time I was getting ready for bed. Hope everyone’s ok and letting it all flow. Much love and blessings xxx xxx
#335
Posted 23 May 2019 - 12:30 PM
The saying here is "if you don't like the weather just wait 5 minutes and it will change." lol
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#336 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 23 May 2019 - 02:37 PM
#339
Posted 23 May 2019 - 04:26 PM
You are right, it's a beautiful thread. Beautiful souls, much love.
I have found myself so depressed after my treatment. No taste for anything, emptiness in a way. Don't get me wrong, I give thanks every day for you guys.
There is no joy to be found, to change my state of mind at the moment. I wonder why God leaves me like this? Anyone, an answer to this to quiet the turmoil inside? A Bible quote? Thinking of God's love doesn't do it. Time, it's hard passing phase. Thanks all of you.
#340 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 23 May 2019 - 04:35 PM
Blessed are the poor in Spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven
Hope that’s of at least a little help. Much love xxx xxx
#341
Posted 23 May 2019 - 05:25 PM
You know... your post NM... first time my head thought of something funny in a long time. I saw "blessed are the" and my head immediately went to "The Life of Brian" and filled in... "blessed are the cheesemakers"
I needed that. Thank you. Will reply to PM in a bit.
Gailage... I think the whole process of the medical employment will have had an impact - in not the medicine, but just the procedure will make you think negatively, with or without your input. The brain puts two and two together so quickly before we can even have a chance to reason with it. I am still struggling to get to the real pleasure parts myself. I should be grateful with neutral right now. But it is so easy to let the mind wander off and think the worst. Problem with neutral, you can go either way. When depressed you can only go up!!
What a strange place my brain is - I just can't win
#342 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 23 May 2019 - 05:34 PM
The cheese makers lol! Funny, I watched The Life of Brian again a few months ago and it was achingly funny and not in any way having a go at Jesus. Blessed are the Greek!
#343
Posted 23 May 2019 - 05:36 PM
Relaxing into the depression, and not looking.......that's a tough one. Wanting to crawl out of my skin instead....I've calmed down a bit with Gravol(anti nausea med).
At times, when like this, I cry so hard then fall asleep. Not this time. It's such an uncomfortable state, the mind going everywhere, searching for a phrase to calm myself, it just doesn't cross the brain barrior.
At times, I say out loud, ok this is depression, and this will pass. I let it be. But, as you say, with the treatment and all, it's all ok. Thank you again!
#345 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 23 May 2019 - 05:49 PM
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#346
Posted 23 May 2019 - 07:47 PM
I have been avidly reading into mindfulness, and how it can help with depression. The concept of meditating without a voice to guide me was unheard of, but it does makes sense. In order to quiet your mind, you need to do this on your own. The Buddhist monks don't have a little mp3 player in their impossibly neat zen gardens... so neither should we.
But quietening the mind is so damn difficult. I've been going nearly a week and I am seeing how it works, and I have had a few moments where I have successfully shut off my thoughts and it really feels wonderful. Your head is just thinking nothing. It has taken anything upto 30 minutes to reach that point, but it is worth it. It is like walking up 10 flights of stairs with a sh*tload of shopping and finally dropping them on the floor. You can hear your brain taking a big sigh of relief. But you really need to stick with it - I can see that.
#348
Posted 24 May 2019 - 07:58 AM
Yes, focus on breath as best I can, but thoughts wander off and you just have to keep bringing your attention back. Once you achieve the quietening, the focus isn't really anywhere - not even the breath. Difficult to explain.
Did 25 mins last night before bed and didn't get there, but still felt rested afterwards.
Shame that I have woken in a bit of a dark hole this morning. Last three days were good, but a lot of things in the background to deal with in my head which meant I couldn't truly relax. I think three days was the threshold and the head has had enough.
It is one of those feelings that is there as soon as you wake - no choice in the matter. I really don't like those where you do not know what you have done to feel this low... Sigh
#349 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 24 May 2019 - 08:08 AM
Sorry you’re in the depths today, IUN. I suppose there’s the long weekend to look forward to but know that’s not much comfort right now. Hope you get to take in a beautiful view, mushy pea, and thanks so much for your kind helpfulness. If it’s any consolation, you’ve lifted me up out of a deep dark pit, and of course you can mention it! Sending you two wonderful souls all my love and blessings. PM you later, bumble bee xxx xxx
#350 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 24 May 2019 - 02:33 PM
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#351
Posted 24 May 2019 - 05:43 PM
Hurrah!! So glad that it has helped to this degree - and that it is continuing to release the goodness!
Long day this end and in need of lots of rest. My neighbour downstairs got drunk and decided that everyone owed him money and started creating havoc! Wonderful start to the weekend!!
Feel like my mood is hanging by a thread, but I have still managed to keep it together!
Wish I was amid the candles and incense with you right now NM....
#352 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 25 May 2019 - 07:55 AM
#353
Posted 25 May 2019 - 09:49 AM
Weather is doing the rounds here. Rain one minute, sunny the next. Typical May for the South of England. And house prices are the worst. Due to closer commutes now, Kent house prices are closing in on those in London, which is why I am choosing still to rent until they drop a bit.
Feeling absolutely washed out today - despite a clear 8 hours sleep! May have been longer had in not been for my neighbour doing her washing! Hope the rain passes and you can enjoy your birds again my dear..
#354 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 25 May 2019 - 10:57 AM
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#355
Posted 25 May 2019 - 01:53 PM
Its leveled out here and lots of people out feeding the damn seagulls. They are so loud - they just won't shut up!! I have been to see my friend this afternoon and had quite a relaxing time, which hasn't happened for a while.
Speaking of house prices, there is a piddly little 1 bedroom flat opposite, with a shower room and doubled up living room/kitchenette just gone on the market and they are asking £125,000! For the love of....
It'll be cheaper to spend the rest of my days in a travel tavern
#356 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 25 May 2019 - 03:21 PM
#357
Posted 25 May 2019 - 04:30 PM
What is with your neighbour and her taps?!
The house prices will all depend on where the current political state takes us. I am in no rush to get back on the property market - I have a good deal with my place as landlady is a close friend - always helps. Just a shame about the other neighbour... We can't win them all!
Trying to remain chilled - hope you are too despite the above. Keep calm, fizzy fish xxx
#358 Guest_NotMyself_*
Posted 25 May 2019 - 04:36 PM
Aye, the world is out of kilter in so many ways. Anything and everything could happen. Glad you’re close with your landlady, but yeah, neighbours.....wish we didn’t have them!
Stay chilled, walnut whip
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